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Chapter 8: The Red Path East of Dallas
Like I mentioned earlier in the book, I worked for three Hall of Fame Thoroughbred trainers in my life. I also worked for a lot of other trainers. I don’t believe one system is best and I think you should experience everything you can in your life to live life to the fullest and find out what you like and who you are. How did you pick a religion? Did your parent’s pick for you? How do you know what truly speaks to you if you don’t try something new? If you are a martial arts fan, you may know that Bruce Lee didn’t like one system, because there is no one system that fits every body type and type of fighting.
I had three different readings in my development by three different mediums who said I would follow the, “red path.” They said I had very strong Native American spirit guides and that I would gravitate to Native American beliefs and medicine and feel comfortable traveling along that path. I lived in Oklahoma for ten years and didn’t have a clue. I graduated from the University of Oklahoma and studied Native American history for many years, but never studied Native spirituality. I started reading everything I could get my hands on about Native Medicine Men, crystal gazers, hand tremblers, healers and seers.
It was true; I was comfortable with Native beliefs. There is one Great Spirit (God) and it doesn’t matter what you call him. You don’t have a set of rules like in most major religions! Common sense was the most common thread in keeping in touch with your guides and your life’s plan. Following the “Red Path” or “Red Road,” is a term used by Native American people to talk about those who are in balance with Mother Nature and following the path that the Great Spirit or God would like us to take with our lives.
To walk the Red Path means to respect and be in harmony with the earth and all living things. Those on the Path have compassion for others and strong family values. They respect other people’s views and ideologies. How else could over 500 Nations survive in North America before the arrival of the Europeans? Those walking the path respect the elderly, teachers and spiritual leaders and always ask, “Is what I am doing in the best interest of the Great Spirit, my family, my tribe and my nation?”
Walking the Path does not put material goods above spirituality. Those who walk the path take responsibility for those who can’t feed, cloth or heal themselves. It is not a religion; it is using common sense and doing the right thing for all living things. You can be any religion or race to follow the Red Path. How you live your life is between you and the Great Spirit! Followers of the Red Path seek peace and harmony with all life!
How do you find the Red Path? Asking God for your life’s purpose is called a “Spirit Quest” or “Vision Quest.” You will ask the Great Spirit to direct you in your life’s purpose and show you the path. You can pray and ask God to make you aware of your unique talents and skills so you can learn your life lessons in love, beauty and joy! The Great Spirit will direct your Spirit Guides and Angels to reveal your path in meditations, dreams, visions and signs. You must have an open mind and heart to listen and watch for these visions and signs. Your guides will leave no doubt in your mind and soul. There are no coincidences on the Red Path. Everything is by design and synchronic. All you have to do is ask for direction and your Guides and Angels will help you stay on the Path. All you have to do is Ask.
I asked for my path and they led me to a psychic medium named Marveena Meek, who lived just east of Dallas in a small town named Forney. I was experimenting with going to a lot of different mediums’ circles and galleries. There are about seven or eight outstanding mediums that I trust and stand by in the Dallas/Ft. Worth area and most I have on my links page of my website. I highly recommend going to see and watch as many mediums as you possibly can.
Marveena was one of these outstanding mediums. She is also a Reiki master as I am now. I liked her circles because she had a very cool Native American induction that she learned from her teachers. She raised Thoroughbred racehorses and I found out and she also had apprenticeships. The only problem was I was poor! I could afford the average gallery donation of between ten to twenty dollars depending on the medium but an apprenticeship was more expensive and my wife PJ wanted to learn Reiki as well. Luckily Marveena needed a new barn built and someone to work with her Thoroughbreds. It’s amazing how our guides work!
Marveena held her circles in the dark. I liked it a lot, but I wouldn’t have accepted it just starting out. I would have thought it was too woo woo, too Hollywood. I believe it increases the power of the circle and I was able to see all types of small flashes and colorful sparks in the air. Holding a circle in the dark helps keep the distractions down to a minimum. That is unless you are distracted by the moving lights and orbs like I was. That is when I started to shut my eyes to make connections. I was already shutting my eyes to meditate, it just made sense.
Marveena was only the third medium I’d been to. I’m from the racetrack so I like to read the “Racing Form,” on everyone, read everything I can get my hands on, news stories, their websites, thank God for Google. Anyway, the skeptic that I am, you gotta’ prove to me you’re legit. I know I’m a pain in the ass for those on the other side, but I’ve been burned before and never again. So I let PJ in on what we’re in for, like the circle in the dark and so. We were sitting around watching the documentary about Elvis. PJ knew about Marco’s reading and my grandfather’s Elvis connection. So the smart ass that I am blurt out, “Okay if this Marveena women is really any good, I’d like to see her bring through Elvis.” Yeah, yeah I got a cheap laugh and nothing else was said about it.
We go to the circle that night that was being held in the back of a salon in Ft. Worth. The room was pitch black and Marveena was on her game. She was bringing in some great messages that night. Just bout everybody in the circle of twenty received something. PJ and I both got readings. It seemed like PJ’s reading was deeper than mine (a lot more names and specific information), but I was happy with my reading and really thought Marveena was good and passed the “Steve seal of approval.” Just towards the end of the two-hour circle (my butt was killing me) she was about to shut down the circle when she said someone was coming through and was sitting next to PJ in the only empty chair in the circle.
“I think its Elvis,” she said.
Both PJ and I burst out with a laugh at the same time. I’m thinking, “Oh my God!”
Marveena asked if we had a connection to Elvis. PJ said he wasn’t connected to us and I added that my grandfather had talked to his father about some horses. Marveena said that wasn’t it. I took a deep breath and explained,
“Okay I kind of dared him to show up if you were really legit.”
Marveena said he was singing a song and that she didn’t want to screw up such a beautiful song by trying to sing it. As soon as he had showed up, he left saying, “Elvis has left the building.” She closed the circle and the place was a buzz. That was the first celebrity she had brought through. PJ and I stayed behind and explained the night before and the television special. That’s when I decided that I would work with Marveena!
The next day I began to meditate in the bedroom like I regularly did, back in the day. I came to the door of my adobe cabin and one of my guides let me in the door. When I walked in expecting to see all of my guides on the couch as usual, I saw my grandfather sitting on the couch grinning from ear to ear and next to him was Elvis. Elvis got up and said it was nice to meet me and left out the back door saying, “Thank you, thank you very much,” the way he does. My grandfather kind of scolded me about playing around with the spirit world, but said it was okay just this once to witness the power. He phased out and I talked to my guides for a short while. Lesson learned! Be careful what you wish for. Was it really Elvis? Not a doubt in my mind and if I’m lying I’m dying, serious as a freakin’ heart attack!
Kat introduced me to triggers to get the energy flowing in her circles. If you watch John Edward he rubs his hands together to raise his vibrations right before he comes on stage and sometimes in the middle of a reading. Kat would rub her hands in a clockwise circular motion. I tried everything, from using a spinning ring, to shuffling Tarot cards and it wasn’t happening for me. You see a trigger is something you can do every time before you start to channel or receive signals from the other side. Your body gets used to the trigger and it is kind of a short cut to raise your vibrations, similar to Pavlov’s dog experiments. You know, every time the French scientist rang a bell and feed the dog, after a while he could just ring the bell and the dog starts to salivate. That is another reason I like to light a candle, incense and some cool music to meditate to. I see the candle, smell the incense and hear the music and my body relaxes and prepares for take-off!
I was reading psychic medium and Reiki master, Echo Bodine’s books and she suggested turning on a light switch on your forehead to open your third eye and unzip an imaginary zipper on the top of your head to open you up. I started using this technique and it really helped. Once while meditating I asked my guides why I wasn’t hearing anything. They said how can you keep talking and not listen to what they are saying. I said I was listening. They said if I was listening then I should hear the stream and rushing water in my head. I said what stream? Suddenly I heard the sound of the mountain stream rushing down the mountain in the back of my head behind the left side of my right ear. They said when I can quite down enough to hear the stream, I’ll be able to hear the voices of spirit and it worked!
I always admired the way Marveena could bring through so many names that were validated by members of the circle. Then she would go on to describe the person’s personality, what they looked like and things they did in their lives. I’m not talking about common names like Mark, John, Mary and Joe; I’m talking one in a million names like Beatrice, Willamina, Myrtle, Vernon, Gilbert, and Eugene. She was right on with the uncommon names. She brought though the easy ones too, don’t get me wrong. She brought through my Great Grandmother that I had never met and only heard a few things about. Pearl is not common of a name, but when I didn’t claim it, Pearl got mad. She said that she was connected through the Edward and had a message for Steve. My grandfather was named Edward and I did have a great-grandmother, but I hadn’t met her. It doesn’t matter. She gave me a great message and told me what I had been doing recently to prove she was with me. She had extremely strong energy as I later received messages from her in other circles as well.
You gotta’ love Marveena’s sense of humor. Before every circle she goes through a spill of what to expect for the new comers who had never attended a circle before. She talks about how she is connected more like a cheap cell phone that cuts out at times and drops out and sometimes she’ll give you a sounds-like name. After about ten minutes of explanations she always ends her speech with, “And I’ll tell all of you when the circle is over so you can put your clothes back on before we turn the lights back on!” She always gets some nervous laughs with that joke.
One time her mentor, Dawanna Paul, was there helping to give messages. Dawanna is a physical and mental medium. I’m really skeptical about physical mediums. I asked my master guide, Eagle Heart, that if she gives me a message to give me a sign if she is on the level. Sure enough Dawanna started to give me a message. It seemed like it was on the level as I could relate to some of the information. She said one of my spirit guide animals was a cougar and went on. I said okay, Eagle Heart, talk to me. I shut my eyes and Eagle Heart was kneeling on a big red rock in my mind’s eye. He slowly started standing up and when he was standing up he outstretched his arms and put his head back as if praying to the heavens. At that moment there was a bright light that flashed behind me. Half the circle of about twenty-five people jumped and about a third of them screamed or yelled. I could tell the light was behind me. I told Marveena it was a sign for me by my Spirit Guide. Little did I know, but Dawanna had asked for a sign that night too. She’d asked her guides if she should move back to the Dallas/ Ft. Worth area. She did.
So I have the horse and cougar as spirit animals. Now, that is not to say I have the qualities of these animals. They were asked to be my spirit animals by my higher self and my guides because I would like to include these qualities in my life. Many Native Americans will carry a totem or small representation of an animal with them as a constant reminder of the qualities they are trying to achieve. The horse represents inner power, freedom and safe movement to do the things I need to do. The Cougar or Mountain Lion represents balanced leadership, cunning and wisdom. Boy, do I need all of those things. It is the same thing in picking Spirit Guides. No, you don’t get to pick down here. You made an agreement with your Master Guide before you came down here. That’s why I know Eagle Heart is the universal champion of patience. B’ God, do I test his patience! Thank God for unconditional love! You leave it up to your Master Guide to pick his posse. You know, he knows a guy that knows a guy that can help you with that work assignment that is due next Monday. You’ll put in the leg work, but it is okay to ask this new guide for inspiration, strength and acceptance to get the job done. How long does he stay with you? I believe it’s a super hero type of thing. You don’t want him or her, waiting around in the Guide lounge (I always think of the teacher’s lounge at school, where they have their own bathroom) when there is hero’n to done somewhere else.
Our guides also send us special messages once you understand the Great Spirit’s or Mother Earth’s code of nature. For example, I work in the city, but from time to time I see a coyote. The properties of the coyote include, humor, trickiness, adaptability or reversal of fortune. Quick, what were you thinking about just before you saw the coyote? Well there you go, an answer from your guides or God! Yes, it is that simple. Are you growing as you awaken in your new life and realm? The hawk is a sign of awakening visionary power, guardianship, awareness, truth, clear visions, a messenger and heightened awareness. Man, I love hawks. I’m right on my path. I’m growing and more things are being revealed to me. After a while if I don’t see a hawk for a while I start to evaluate what I’m doing and where I’m going. Am I still on the path?
One of my personal favorites is the crow. The crow represents magic, creation, spiritual strength, intuitive knowledge and assertiveness of voice. Crows are very good luck for me. Every time I see one, something good usually follows. Now am I creating the good things that are happening to me? If I see three crows together, you can bet I’m playing the lottery that day. What if I am making my own luck or good fortune? Thank goodness my guides are sending me some crows to get the process started. Become aware what is around you? Start with the animals and birds all around you. So you never noticed these things before? It is an incredible experience. The animals will teach you what you need to learn about the people around you. Switch energy and watch and feel the people around you. It’s pretty heavy energy. Now shift up and feel the lighter energy. Now you are talking to dead people!
I had three different readings in my development by three different mediums who said I would follow the, “red path.” They said I had very strong Native American spirit guides and that I would gravitate to Native American beliefs and medicine and feel comfortable traveling along that path. I lived in Oklahoma for ten years and didn’t have a clue. I graduated from the University of Oklahoma and studied Native American history for many years, but never studied Native spirituality. I started reading everything I could get my hands on about Native Medicine Men, crystal gazers, hand tremblers, healers and seers.
It was true; I was comfortable with Native beliefs. There is one Great Spirit (God) and it doesn’t matter what you call him. You don’t have a set of rules like in most major religions! Common sense was the most common thread in keeping in touch with your guides and your life’s plan. Following the “Red Path” or “Red Road,” is a term used by Native American people to talk about those who are in balance with Mother Nature and following the path that the Great Spirit or God would like us to take with our lives.
To walk the Red Path means to respect and be in harmony with the earth and all living things. Those on the Path have compassion for others and strong family values. They respect other people’s views and ideologies. How else could over 500 Nations survive in North America before the arrival of the Europeans? Those walking the path respect the elderly, teachers and spiritual leaders and always ask, “Is what I am doing in the best interest of the Great Spirit, my family, my tribe and my nation?”
Walking the Path does not put material goods above spirituality. Those who walk the path take responsibility for those who can’t feed, cloth or heal themselves. It is not a religion; it is using common sense and doing the right thing for all living things. You can be any religion or race to follow the Red Path. How you live your life is between you and the Great Spirit! Followers of the Red Path seek peace and harmony with all life!
How do you find the Red Path? Asking God for your life’s purpose is called a “Spirit Quest” or “Vision Quest.” You will ask the Great Spirit to direct you in your life’s purpose and show you the path. You can pray and ask God to make you aware of your unique talents and skills so you can learn your life lessons in love, beauty and joy! The Great Spirit will direct your Spirit Guides and Angels to reveal your path in meditations, dreams, visions and signs. You must have an open mind and heart to listen and watch for these visions and signs. Your guides will leave no doubt in your mind and soul. There are no coincidences on the Red Path. Everything is by design and synchronic. All you have to do is ask for direction and your Guides and Angels will help you stay on the Path. All you have to do is Ask.
I asked for my path and they led me to a psychic medium named Marveena Meek, who lived just east of Dallas in a small town named Forney. I was experimenting with going to a lot of different mediums’ circles and galleries. There are about seven or eight outstanding mediums that I trust and stand by in the Dallas/Ft. Worth area and most I have on my links page of my website. I highly recommend going to see and watch as many mediums as you possibly can.
Marveena was one of these outstanding mediums. She is also a Reiki master as I am now. I liked her circles because she had a very cool Native American induction that she learned from her teachers. She raised Thoroughbred racehorses and I found out and she also had apprenticeships. The only problem was I was poor! I could afford the average gallery donation of between ten to twenty dollars depending on the medium but an apprenticeship was more expensive and my wife PJ wanted to learn Reiki as well. Luckily Marveena needed a new barn built and someone to work with her Thoroughbreds. It’s amazing how our guides work!
Marveena held her circles in the dark. I liked it a lot, but I wouldn’t have accepted it just starting out. I would have thought it was too woo woo, too Hollywood. I believe it increases the power of the circle and I was able to see all types of small flashes and colorful sparks in the air. Holding a circle in the dark helps keep the distractions down to a minimum. That is unless you are distracted by the moving lights and orbs like I was. That is when I started to shut my eyes to make connections. I was already shutting my eyes to meditate, it just made sense.
Marveena was only the third medium I’d been to. I’m from the racetrack so I like to read the “Racing Form,” on everyone, read everything I can get my hands on, news stories, their websites, thank God for Google. Anyway, the skeptic that I am, you gotta’ prove to me you’re legit. I know I’m a pain in the ass for those on the other side, but I’ve been burned before and never again. So I let PJ in on what we’re in for, like the circle in the dark and so. We were sitting around watching the documentary about Elvis. PJ knew about Marco’s reading and my grandfather’s Elvis connection. So the smart ass that I am blurt out, “Okay if this Marveena women is really any good, I’d like to see her bring through Elvis.” Yeah, yeah I got a cheap laugh and nothing else was said about it.
We go to the circle that night that was being held in the back of a salon in Ft. Worth. The room was pitch black and Marveena was on her game. She was bringing in some great messages that night. Just bout everybody in the circle of twenty received something. PJ and I both got readings. It seemed like PJ’s reading was deeper than mine (a lot more names and specific information), but I was happy with my reading and really thought Marveena was good and passed the “Steve seal of approval.” Just towards the end of the two-hour circle (my butt was killing me) she was about to shut down the circle when she said someone was coming through and was sitting next to PJ in the only empty chair in the circle.
“I think its Elvis,” she said.
Both PJ and I burst out with a laugh at the same time. I’m thinking, “Oh my God!”
Marveena asked if we had a connection to Elvis. PJ said he wasn’t connected to us and I added that my grandfather had talked to his father about some horses. Marveena said that wasn’t it. I took a deep breath and explained,
“Okay I kind of dared him to show up if you were really legit.”
Marveena said he was singing a song and that she didn’t want to screw up such a beautiful song by trying to sing it. As soon as he had showed up, he left saying, “Elvis has left the building.” She closed the circle and the place was a buzz. That was the first celebrity she had brought through. PJ and I stayed behind and explained the night before and the television special. That’s when I decided that I would work with Marveena!
The next day I began to meditate in the bedroom like I regularly did, back in the day. I came to the door of my adobe cabin and one of my guides let me in the door. When I walked in expecting to see all of my guides on the couch as usual, I saw my grandfather sitting on the couch grinning from ear to ear and next to him was Elvis. Elvis got up and said it was nice to meet me and left out the back door saying, “Thank you, thank you very much,” the way he does. My grandfather kind of scolded me about playing around with the spirit world, but said it was okay just this once to witness the power. He phased out and I talked to my guides for a short while. Lesson learned! Be careful what you wish for. Was it really Elvis? Not a doubt in my mind and if I’m lying I’m dying, serious as a freakin’ heart attack!
Kat introduced me to triggers to get the energy flowing in her circles. If you watch John Edward he rubs his hands together to raise his vibrations right before he comes on stage and sometimes in the middle of a reading. Kat would rub her hands in a clockwise circular motion. I tried everything, from using a spinning ring, to shuffling Tarot cards and it wasn’t happening for me. You see a trigger is something you can do every time before you start to channel or receive signals from the other side. Your body gets used to the trigger and it is kind of a short cut to raise your vibrations, similar to Pavlov’s dog experiments. You know, every time the French scientist rang a bell and feed the dog, after a while he could just ring the bell and the dog starts to salivate. That is another reason I like to light a candle, incense and some cool music to meditate to. I see the candle, smell the incense and hear the music and my body relaxes and prepares for take-off!
I was reading psychic medium and Reiki master, Echo Bodine’s books and she suggested turning on a light switch on your forehead to open your third eye and unzip an imaginary zipper on the top of your head to open you up. I started using this technique and it really helped. Once while meditating I asked my guides why I wasn’t hearing anything. They said how can you keep talking and not listen to what they are saying. I said I was listening. They said if I was listening then I should hear the stream and rushing water in my head. I said what stream? Suddenly I heard the sound of the mountain stream rushing down the mountain in the back of my head behind the left side of my right ear. They said when I can quite down enough to hear the stream, I’ll be able to hear the voices of spirit and it worked!
I always admired the way Marveena could bring through so many names that were validated by members of the circle. Then she would go on to describe the person’s personality, what they looked like and things they did in their lives. I’m not talking about common names like Mark, John, Mary and Joe; I’m talking one in a million names like Beatrice, Willamina, Myrtle, Vernon, Gilbert, and Eugene. She was right on with the uncommon names. She brought though the easy ones too, don’t get me wrong. She brought through my Great Grandmother that I had never met and only heard a few things about. Pearl is not common of a name, but when I didn’t claim it, Pearl got mad. She said that she was connected through the Edward and had a message for Steve. My grandfather was named Edward and I did have a great-grandmother, but I hadn’t met her. It doesn’t matter. She gave me a great message and told me what I had been doing recently to prove she was with me. She had extremely strong energy as I later received messages from her in other circles as well.
You gotta’ love Marveena’s sense of humor. Before every circle she goes through a spill of what to expect for the new comers who had never attended a circle before. She talks about how she is connected more like a cheap cell phone that cuts out at times and drops out and sometimes she’ll give you a sounds-like name. After about ten minutes of explanations she always ends her speech with, “And I’ll tell all of you when the circle is over so you can put your clothes back on before we turn the lights back on!” She always gets some nervous laughs with that joke.
One time her mentor, Dawanna Paul, was there helping to give messages. Dawanna is a physical and mental medium. I’m really skeptical about physical mediums. I asked my master guide, Eagle Heart, that if she gives me a message to give me a sign if she is on the level. Sure enough Dawanna started to give me a message. It seemed like it was on the level as I could relate to some of the information. She said one of my spirit guide animals was a cougar and went on. I said okay, Eagle Heart, talk to me. I shut my eyes and Eagle Heart was kneeling on a big red rock in my mind’s eye. He slowly started standing up and when he was standing up he outstretched his arms and put his head back as if praying to the heavens. At that moment there was a bright light that flashed behind me. Half the circle of about twenty-five people jumped and about a third of them screamed or yelled. I could tell the light was behind me. I told Marveena it was a sign for me by my Spirit Guide. Little did I know, but Dawanna had asked for a sign that night too. She’d asked her guides if she should move back to the Dallas/ Ft. Worth area. She did.
So I have the horse and cougar as spirit animals. Now, that is not to say I have the qualities of these animals. They were asked to be my spirit animals by my higher self and my guides because I would like to include these qualities in my life. Many Native Americans will carry a totem or small representation of an animal with them as a constant reminder of the qualities they are trying to achieve. The horse represents inner power, freedom and safe movement to do the things I need to do. The Cougar or Mountain Lion represents balanced leadership, cunning and wisdom. Boy, do I need all of those things. It is the same thing in picking Spirit Guides. No, you don’t get to pick down here. You made an agreement with your Master Guide before you came down here. That’s why I know Eagle Heart is the universal champion of patience. B’ God, do I test his patience! Thank God for unconditional love! You leave it up to your Master Guide to pick his posse. You know, he knows a guy that knows a guy that can help you with that work assignment that is due next Monday. You’ll put in the leg work, but it is okay to ask this new guide for inspiration, strength and acceptance to get the job done. How long does he stay with you? I believe it’s a super hero type of thing. You don’t want him or her, waiting around in the Guide lounge (I always think of the teacher’s lounge at school, where they have their own bathroom) when there is hero’n to done somewhere else.
Our guides also send us special messages once you understand the Great Spirit’s or Mother Earth’s code of nature. For example, I work in the city, but from time to time I see a coyote. The properties of the coyote include, humor, trickiness, adaptability or reversal of fortune. Quick, what were you thinking about just before you saw the coyote? Well there you go, an answer from your guides or God! Yes, it is that simple. Are you growing as you awaken in your new life and realm? The hawk is a sign of awakening visionary power, guardianship, awareness, truth, clear visions, a messenger and heightened awareness. Man, I love hawks. I’m right on my path. I’m growing and more things are being revealed to me. After a while if I don’t see a hawk for a while I start to evaluate what I’m doing and where I’m going. Am I still on the path?
One of my personal favorites is the crow. The crow represents magic, creation, spiritual strength, intuitive knowledge and assertiveness of voice. Crows are very good luck for me. Every time I see one, something good usually follows. Now am I creating the good things that are happening to me? If I see three crows together, you can bet I’m playing the lottery that day. What if I am making my own luck or good fortune? Thank goodness my guides are sending me some crows to get the process started. Become aware what is around you? Start with the animals and birds all around you. So you never noticed these things before? It is an incredible experience. The animals will teach you what you need to learn about the people around you. Switch energy and watch and feel the people around you. It’s pretty heavy energy. Now shift up and feel the lighter energy. Now you are talking to dead people!
Chapter 7: Knight of Swords
John Edward started reading Tarot at local psychic fairs before he became a full-time psychic medium. He was a skeptic too! A lot of mediums use Tarot to start a reading, during and throughout a reading. Some have a deck of cards sitting by as a safety net. Some will shuffle a deck of cards while they are giving a reading. Some mediums turn their noses up at Tarot and wouldn’t give you a Tarot reading for a million bucks. I started reading Tarot because that was the way John Edward started.
I believe the most effective way to increase your psychic and mediumship skills is to join a development circle and attend as often as you can. Practice doesn’t make perfect. Perfect practice makes perfect. The only problem is that psychic skills will never be perfect. You practice to be the best you can and except that your readings may never be perfect, but the goal is to help someone who is asking for help. You won’t solve their problems or fix their lives, but you can help them to stay on their path or get back on their path. That being said, good development circles are few and far between. You can use a Tarot deck to get information for people and help sharpen your psychic and mediumship skills.
Tarot is immediate and always has an answer for you. You either believe in it or don’t. If not, you’ll keep reshuffling until you get the answer you want. Just as there are people that hop from one psychic to the next until they get the reading they want. I don’t know anybody who can learn everything Tarot has to offer. You could study Tarot for the rest of your life and never unlock all of Tarot’s secrets! You can also take what you learn in a few hours about Tarot and it can benefit you for the rest of your life. I used Tarot as a tool for guidance, divination, creativity and a way to get my psychic gifts started. I consider Tarot one of many tools for connecting to your higher self (soul), spirit guides, guardian angels and developing your psychic abilities.
People all over the world have used different systems for divination for thousands of years. There have been psychics, seers, oracles and prophets, who have used sticks, stones, shells, animals, leaves, runes, dominos, dice, playing cards and Tarot to divine the future and answer questions for themselves and others. There is no definite answer as to who invented the actual Tarot deck that we know today. We do know that it has been used in divination for over a thousand years and until the last few hundred years; this was kept as secret knowledge.
Tarot is the language of our intuition. The Tarot is a means of gaining insight into our spiritual and earthly worlds. The Archetype symbols located on the Tarot cards have significant meanings to our sub-conscious, super conscious self or our soul. These symbols work to universally connect us to our spirit guides, soul, and angels. This is one of the easiest ways that Spirit can communicate with us. Your guides, angels and soul all know what you know about each card. They know if you don’t understand an astrology or numerology meaning with a particular card, so they won’t use that number or sign to communicate an answer to your question. That is why we are like children learning to speak, in using the Tarot. The more you get from an image and file the information away in your brain, the more opportunities your angels and guides will have to communicate with you. When you read intuitively, these images will connect with other ideas and memories that will pop into your head, thus creating another way of communicating with your guides, angels and your higher self. With practice you can communicate with your angels and guides at will, through thought, speech, hearing and vision.
Another thing to remember is that we all have free will. Yes, the Tarot can tell about future events. But that doesn’t mean that you can’t change the outcome of any reading. You ask the Tarot (really your guides, angel or higher self) a question and they answer according to “if everything remains the same and you continue on this path.” It’s as if you are walking down a train track and someone tells you that you will die if you continue to walk that path, because a train will eventually come and hit you. So knowing this you jump off the track and the train passes by. It’s the same with any answer you get from the cards. That is why you will learn how to phrase questions and ask questions to find the underlying problems or influences in your life that you may not see now.
Learning the Tarot is a door to into becoming a psychic. Remember, all mediums are psychic, but not all psychics are mediums. I have a bunch of psychic friends. I didn’t want to be a psychic because it is too hard to validate and confirm messages. I told you we have free will. I trust my guides and angels will guide me on my path. Suppose you go to a psychic and ask them if you should marry the person you are dating. The psychic reads the cards or their visions and tells you, yes. Your guides may want you to marry this person because you have unfinished karma (we’ll get into later) or business with this person from another life. You have a terrible marriage and end up divorcing that person. The guide is happy because you have learned lot’s of lessons that you came down here to learn and have equaled out some Karma to boot. Now, if you wouldn’t have gone to that particular psychic, I think you would have married that person anyway and the same scenario occurs. Too many people live their lives by psychics or the cards when they have free will. If you live by the cards or a psychic you are giving up your free will.
That being said, Tarot will still give you a jump start into being a medium. The cards deal with symbols, your mind and subconscious, just like your guides and angels contact you with symbols, pictures and sounds. By learning Tarot you are learning a basic visual language, just as others learn Spanish, French or Chinese. When you are on the other side you communicate with thought and Tarot is a great start. When I started giving medium readings in circle, my guides would use a lot of Tarot symbols to help me give a message. They would show me a picture of a Tarot card, like the chariot and the color red and I’d interpret that for the person I was reading as a red car. Then they would show me a picture in my head of a chariot with a broken wheel. I’d ask the sitter if they were having problems with the car or had a flat tire recently. It’s kind of like mental charades.
It’s hard to imagine that the right cards will come up by shuffling 78 cards. Here’s the deal. Your guides know the order of the cards every time you shuffle them. They also know how you will interpret a particular card or how they will influence you to interpret a particular card. When you have shuffled them enough, you hear their little voice in the back of your head say, “that’s enough.” They also know or influence you to cut the deck at the right place. Never underestimate the strength of your Guides. It is as if they a supercomputer figuring out all of the possible outcomes and paths. Allen Stairs, of the Department of Philosophy, University of Maryland says the number of possible spreads is huge. Take a full deck of seventy-eight tarot cards. The popular Celtic cross spread involves ten cards, arranged in a specific order. The number of different Celtic cross spreads possible using the seventy-eight cards is 4,566,176,969,818,464,000. So if your guides want to get a message to someone, they’ll find a way!
If you choose the Tarot path, I recommend the Rider-Waite deck or a deck based on Rider-Waite, which is one of the most popular decks in the world. This all began when it was first printed in 1910. It was easy to learn and handed down to generations of card readers. There are also Rider-Waite decks that use the same symbols but are colored in different styles, such as the Radiant deck, the Universal Waite deck, the Albano-Waite deck, etc. I would say that about 90% of the other hundreds of decks on the market today use the Rider-Waite symbolism.
I recommend choosing a deck that speaks to you. You have to really enjoy the artwork and the symbols so you will learn and enjoy using the cards. Most of the reference books out there will teach reading the Tarot using the Rider-Waite symbols which are the easiest to use. Go to some of the many websites that review decks. These sites (in the appendix) will show pictures of hundreds of decks and every detail about the deck. I started with the original Rider-Waite deck, but changed to the Buckland Romani deck as my primary reading deck. Your spirit guides and angels will help you with the selection of a deck. You will know when you found the “perfect” deck.
There really isn’t any mysticism and spookiness about the deck. The tarot is made up of two major sections. The Major Arcana means “greater secrets” or “major mysteries” in Latin and represents significant and important turning points in our lives. The cards relay important messages as the Tarot depicts archetypal human feelings and situations. The Major Arcana deal with many cultures or civilizations because they represent a universal condition. Your sub-conscious and higher self understands this story and meanings. These cards follow humankind's spiritual pilgrimage toward the state of final perfection.
When reading, just use your intuition as it relates to the card and the question the card is trying to answer. It is as simple as the Fool is starting a new journey and getting a fresh start. You are experiencing something new in your life. It may be a new job or friendship. How does this new journey relate to the question you asked the cards. Did you ask if you are going to travel, get a new job or find a new love? It appears that it is in the cards!
I recommend that you at least learn the key word meanings of the cards. This way the cards can help you when you get stuck. In Intuitive Tarot go through all of the preparation you would do for a normal Tarot reading. Have your sitter or friend ask the question while shuffling the cards. While they are shuffling the cards think about the question. You may even shut your eyes for a moment to reduce the outside distractions. What is the first thing that pops into your head about the question? What did you see, hear, feel, smell, taste or just know about the question? This is your intuition speaking!
The client puts the cards in three piles and you pick them up as Spirit calls you to do so. You have already announced a spread. Do you know the answer to the question? The first thought that came into your head was your intuition. Go with that thought. Don’t second guess! And keep that thought while you place the cards face down in the spread that you plan to use.
Turnover the first card of the spread. As soon as you do what thought pops into your head about the question? Do you hear or see anything in your head? What do you feel about the card you turned over? It is important to note the first thing that you think of. Write it down if you need to. Continue to flip the cards over in the spread and remember the position of each card. For example, in the three-card spread of Past, Present and Future, you may have turned over the Empress in the Past position. Could this lady be something more in regards to the client’s question? Could it be a mother, grandmother, someone from work, a past love? You go with the idea you first get and you can’t second guess yourself. You have to learn to trust your Spirit Guides, Angels and Higher Self. The second card in the spread may be the Chariot. As you turned the card over you thought of a cruise ship. Is the client going to take a vacation? The Chariot can mean movement and travel! The third card in the spread you turn over is the Lover’s card. Is the client going on a honeymoon? Or will they meet their soul mate on this trip? Or are they having a hard time in determining their vacation plans? This can mean choice, attraction or love. What was the question? Put it all together. You have your intuition to lead you in the right direction and the cards to fall back on and help you if you get stuck.
As you become better at Tarot you will become better with your psychic skills. It will get to the point (with practice) that you will be able to answer the client’s question using your psychic skills alone. The cards will become a way to back up your psychic reading. The cards may add something to your psychic reading and help define the reading. As you get better you may receive other information for the client that they didn’t ask about. In the appendix of this book you will find a lot of information on good Tarot books and decks.
Tarot is just a tool. There are a ton of different tools. Practice is the key to developing your psychic skills. Write it all down! Every time you get anything psychically, write it down. Write down what Tarot spread you used and what answers you received. How did you get the answers? Were you just reading the cards or did spirit show you another picture in your head? Did you hear a voice or just have a feeling you knew the answer? Write it down. Keep a journal! You will amaze yourself how fast you are progressing. When you go to galleries or development circles, write down what you get. Write down how you feel. Write it all down! Soon you’ll develop your own style and practices based on what worked for you in the past!
I believe the most effective way to increase your psychic and mediumship skills is to join a development circle and attend as often as you can. Practice doesn’t make perfect. Perfect practice makes perfect. The only problem is that psychic skills will never be perfect. You practice to be the best you can and except that your readings may never be perfect, but the goal is to help someone who is asking for help. You won’t solve their problems or fix their lives, but you can help them to stay on their path or get back on their path. That being said, good development circles are few and far between. You can use a Tarot deck to get information for people and help sharpen your psychic and mediumship skills.
Tarot is immediate and always has an answer for you. You either believe in it or don’t. If not, you’ll keep reshuffling until you get the answer you want. Just as there are people that hop from one psychic to the next until they get the reading they want. I don’t know anybody who can learn everything Tarot has to offer. You could study Tarot for the rest of your life and never unlock all of Tarot’s secrets! You can also take what you learn in a few hours about Tarot and it can benefit you for the rest of your life. I used Tarot as a tool for guidance, divination, creativity and a way to get my psychic gifts started. I consider Tarot one of many tools for connecting to your higher self (soul), spirit guides, guardian angels and developing your psychic abilities.
People all over the world have used different systems for divination for thousands of years. There have been psychics, seers, oracles and prophets, who have used sticks, stones, shells, animals, leaves, runes, dominos, dice, playing cards and Tarot to divine the future and answer questions for themselves and others. There is no definite answer as to who invented the actual Tarot deck that we know today. We do know that it has been used in divination for over a thousand years and until the last few hundred years; this was kept as secret knowledge.
Tarot is the language of our intuition. The Tarot is a means of gaining insight into our spiritual and earthly worlds. The Archetype symbols located on the Tarot cards have significant meanings to our sub-conscious, super conscious self or our soul. These symbols work to universally connect us to our spirit guides, soul, and angels. This is one of the easiest ways that Spirit can communicate with us. Your guides, angels and soul all know what you know about each card. They know if you don’t understand an astrology or numerology meaning with a particular card, so they won’t use that number or sign to communicate an answer to your question. That is why we are like children learning to speak, in using the Tarot. The more you get from an image and file the information away in your brain, the more opportunities your angels and guides will have to communicate with you. When you read intuitively, these images will connect with other ideas and memories that will pop into your head, thus creating another way of communicating with your guides, angels and your higher self. With practice you can communicate with your angels and guides at will, through thought, speech, hearing and vision.
Another thing to remember is that we all have free will. Yes, the Tarot can tell about future events. But that doesn’t mean that you can’t change the outcome of any reading. You ask the Tarot (really your guides, angel or higher self) a question and they answer according to “if everything remains the same and you continue on this path.” It’s as if you are walking down a train track and someone tells you that you will die if you continue to walk that path, because a train will eventually come and hit you. So knowing this you jump off the track and the train passes by. It’s the same with any answer you get from the cards. That is why you will learn how to phrase questions and ask questions to find the underlying problems or influences in your life that you may not see now.
Learning the Tarot is a door to into becoming a psychic. Remember, all mediums are psychic, but not all psychics are mediums. I have a bunch of psychic friends. I didn’t want to be a psychic because it is too hard to validate and confirm messages. I told you we have free will. I trust my guides and angels will guide me on my path. Suppose you go to a psychic and ask them if you should marry the person you are dating. The psychic reads the cards or their visions and tells you, yes. Your guides may want you to marry this person because you have unfinished karma (we’ll get into later) or business with this person from another life. You have a terrible marriage and end up divorcing that person. The guide is happy because you have learned lot’s of lessons that you came down here to learn and have equaled out some Karma to boot. Now, if you wouldn’t have gone to that particular psychic, I think you would have married that person anyway and the same scenario occurs. Too many people live their lives by psychics or the cards when they have free will. If you live by the cards or a psychic you are giving up your free will.
That being said, Tarot will still give you a jump start into being a medium. The cards deal with symbols, your mind and subconscious, just like your guides and angels contact you with symbols, pictures and sounds. By learning Tarot you are learning a basic visual language, just as others learn Spanish, French or Chinese. When you are on the other side you communicate with thought and Tarot is a great start. When I started giving medium readings in circle, my guides would use a lot of Tarot symbols to help me give a message. They would show me a picture of a Tarot card, like the chariot and the color red and I’d interpret that for the person I was reading as a red car. Then they would show me a picture in my head of a chariot with a broken wheel. I’d ask the sitter if they were having problems with the car or had a flat tire recently. It’s kind of like mental charades.
It’s hard to imagine that the right cards will come up by shuffling 78 cards. Here’s the deal. Your guides know the order of the cards every time you shuffle them. They also know how you will interpret a particular card or how they will influence you to interpret a particular card. When you have shuffled them enough, you hear their little voice in the back of your head say, “that’s enough.” They also know or influence you to cut the deck at the right place. Never underestimate the strength of your Guides. It is as if they a supercomputer figuring out all of the possible outcomes and paths. Allen Stairs, of the Department of Philosophy, University of Maryland says the number of possible spreads is huge. Take a full deck of seventy-eight tarot cards. The popular Celtic cross spread involves ten cards, arranged in a specific order. The number of different Celtic cross spreads possible using the seventy-eight cards is 4,566,176,969,818,464,000. So if your guides want to get a message to someone, they’ll find a way!
If you choose the Tarot path, I recommend the Rider-Waite deck or a deck based on Rider-Waite, which is one of the most popular decks in the world. This all began when it was first printed in 1910. It was easy to learn and handed down to generations of card readers. There are also Rider-Waite decks that use the same symbols but are colored in different styles, such as the Radiant deck, the Universal Waite deck, the Albano-Waite deck, etc. I would say that about 90% of the other hundreds of decks on the market today use the Rider-Waite symbolism.
I recommend choosing a deck that speaks to you. You have to really enjoy the artwork and the symbols so you will learn and enjoy using the cards. Most of the reference books out there will teach reading the Tarot using the Rider-Waite symbols which are the easiest to use. Go to some of the many websites that review decks. These sites (in the appendix) will show pictures of hundreds of decks and every detail about the deck. I started with the original Rider-Waite deck, but changed to the Buckland Romani deck as my primary reading deck. Your spirit guides and angels will help you with the selection of a deck. You will know when you found the “perfect” deck.
There really isn’t any mysticism and spookiness about the deck. The tarot is made up of two major sections. The Major Arcana means “greater secrets” or “major mysteries” in Latin and represents significant and important turning points in our lives. The cards relay important messages as the Tarot depicts archetypal human feelings and situations. The Major Arcana deal with many cultures or civilizations because they represent a universal condition. Your sub-conscious and higher self understands this story and meanings. These cards follow humankind's spiritual pilgrimage toward the state of final perfection.
When reading, just use your intuition as it relates to the card and the question the card is trying to answer. It is as simple as the Fool is starting a new journey and getting a fresh start. You are experiencing something new in your life. It may be a new job or friendship. How does this new journey relate to the question you asked the cards. Did you ask if you are going to travel, get a new job or find a new love? It appears that it is in the cards!
I recommend that you at least learn the key word meanings of the cards. This way the cards can help you when you get stuck. In Intuitive Tarot go through all of the preparation you would do for a normal Tarot reading. Have your sitter or friend ask the question while shuffling the cards. While they are shuffling the cards think about the question. You may even shut your eyes for a moment to reduce the outside distractions. What is the first thing that pops into your head about the question? What did you see, hear, feel, smell, taste or just know about the question? This is your intuition speaking!
The client puts the cards in three piles and you pick them up as Spirit calls you to do so. You have already announced a spread. Do you know the answer to the question? The first thought that came into your head was your intuition. Go with that thought. Don’t second guess! And keep that thought while you place the cards face down in the spread that you plan to use.
Turnover the first card of the spread. As soon as you do what thought pops into your head about the question? Do you hear or see anything in your head? What do you feel about the card you turned over? It is important to note the first thing that you think of. Write it down if you need to. Continue to flip the cards over in the spread and remember the position of each card. For example, in the three-card spread of Past, Present and Future, you may have turned over the Empress in the Past position. Could this lady be something more in regards to the client’s question? Could it be a mother, grandmother, someone from work, a past love? You go with the idea you first get and you can’t second guess yourself. You have to learn to trust your Spirit Guides, Angels and Higher Self. The second card in the spread may be the Chariot. As you turned the card over you thought of a cruise ship. Is the client going to take a vacation? The Chariot can mean movement and travel! The third card in the spread you turn over is the Lover’s card. Is the client going on a honeymoon? Or will they meet their soul mate on this trip? Or are they having a hard time in determining their vacation plans? This can mean choice, attraction or love. What was the question? Put it all together. You have your intuition to lead you in the right direction and the cards to fall back on and help you if you get stuck.
As you become better at Tarot you will become better with your psychic skills. It will get to the point (with practice) that you will be able to answer the client’s question using your psychic skills alone. The cards will become a way to back up your psychic reading. The cards may add something to your psychic reading and help define the reading. As you get better you may receive other information for the client that they didn’t ask about. In the appendix of this book you will find a lot of information on good Tarot books and decks.
Tarot is just a tool. There are a ton of different tools. Practice is the key to developing your psychic skills. Write it all down! Every time you get anything psychically, write it down. Write down what Tarot spread you used and what answers you received. How did you get the answers? Were you just reading the cards or did spirit show you another picture in your head? Did you hear a voice or just have a feeling you knew the answer? Write it down. Keep a journal! You will amaze yourself how fast you are progressing. When you go to galleries or development circles, write down what you get. Write down how you feel. Write it all down! Soon you’ll develop your own style and practices based on what worked for you in the past!
Chapter 6: There is a Reason for Everything
What most books don’t tell you and most mediums forget to tell you as your developing your psychic skills are the little annoyances. You may have your face break out like you did when you were a teenage kid. You will have many sleepless nights and night sweats. You may gain weight and have headaches. You may feel like you are in a daze and find yourself day dreaming at work. Why? I don’t know. Your guides and angels are tuning you up like a racehorse. Think about it, you just don’t decide to go out for the Olympics, pick a sport, train for a few weeks and make the team.
If you have ever had a good reading from a medium, you know it is an amazing accomplishment. It makes you feel so good and is literally a life changing event. It has just been proven to you that we don’t die and a person has just given you proof that your loved ones and friends are alive and well on the other side! It feels the same way for the medium. Every time I get a name of a relative validated by a sitter it is like hitting a home run! Every time I describe a pet and describe its color, the breed, its name and personality it is like winning the National Spelling Bee! And I’m dyslexic, so you can imagine what that feels like for me. As a stakes groom, I worked for three different Hall of Fame Thoroughbred trainers and my horses have won a lot of races. After winning a $100,000 race with one of my horses in Chicago, a friend asked if it was the best feeling in the world. I said it was good, but not as good as running tenth in the Kentucky Derby!
It takes years to develop your psychic and mediumship skills and abilities. There are a lot of psychics and mediums that say they were born psychics and remember having these skills as young kids. That’s all and good. We’re all born psychic. If they don’t have to work to polish and upgrade their skills, then what was the point in this life time? Many of the best mediums studied and worked on their skills for up to seven to ten years before they began to charge money for their services or to perform in public. Don’t be in a hurry. I studied for six years before I “turned pro.” What is the point if you hang out a shingle with your name on it and start giving half ass readings to people who deserve the best? This is the part in the movie “The Matrix” were Morpheus offers Neo the red and blue pill. Take the blue pill and you’ll go to sleep tonight and wake up in the morning remembering nothing. Take the red pill and see how far the rabbit hole goes, but there is no going back.
Once you get to a point in your development, there is no going back. Even if you don’t want to be a professional psychic, you can use these skills to help your life and others. I know psychic veterinarians, lawyers, pilots, salesman, secretaries, dental assistants, actors and mailmen that use their psychic skills in everyday life. Once you get to a point, the messages or life changes won’t stop. Do you really want to be a medium? Are you prepared to spend long hours and years preparing for it? There is a hell of a lot easier paths to make a buck. You could just as well go to college for six to seven years and get your doctorates degree. But you may already be on your life’s path and your guides are bumping you every once in the while until you finally get it. This may be what you are supposed to do in this life! This is what you signed up for.
I don’t believe in coincidences any more. I don’t believe in luck anymore as well. Everything happens for a reason. I don’t believe in predestination. I know we have free will and can change the path we signed up for. There are no random experiences. I believe in cause and effect, even if the cause is super natural or from the other side of the veil. Start believing in synchronicity. There is a big plan for humanity and it is moving too slow for me. Did I mention one of my life lessons this life is patience?
Everything that is good and bad in the world happens for a reason. It is very hard to accept this concept. Once you accept reincarnation, this will be but a little bump in the road. To say that bad things happen to good people for a reason sounds very callous and demeaning. But try to be like the perfect Buddhist and detach yourself from the outcome for just a minute.
It’s like watching a boring movie, people being killed, bad things happening to them and all around them. But you are not personally invested in the outcome, so it doesn’t matter to you. If someone is killed half way around the world, you may not care. But invest your personal feelings and attachment to the situation and it will knock you on your butt. I have to detach my feelings from the people I am reading so I can give them what they want. I can’t get emotionally involved! It would lower my energy and vibrations and I wouldn’t be giving it my best effort. So if you are detached you’re not feeling the same sensations as someone who is attached to the situation. What if you went through your entire life being detached? It wouldn’t be a very fun life in this world. You wouldn’t know sorrow or joy. You wouldn’t know the devastation of losing someone close to you or the love of a soul mate. Would your life be worth living?
What if…just what if…before you came down here to this life, you made a list of different experiences to happen to you in this lifetime. You wouldn’t want to pile on too much, for you are in no hurry to experience everything. You know you will have many lives to develop your soul that is living the high life on the other plane we call heaven. It doesn’t sound so bad to think about it that way. And to make sure you experience everything that you wanted to, you asked a guide (with super powers) that would stay virtually invisible to help keep you on the path to learn these lessons. To make sure you hook up with your soul mate or mates so you create a déjà vu or little red flags that pop up from time to time to make sure you feel safe heading down a particular path. After all there was a wise council that showed you scenes from the role you are taking in this movie, I mean life, so you won’t just be relying on your own thoughts and wishes, but someone much wiser than yourself that you know will help you grow as a soul, I mean person. Get the big picture? How do I know? I talk to dead people and that’s good enough for me.
Remember I said we have free will. Why do we do the things we do? Did you ever wish you could take something back that you said that hurt somebody? Did you grow as a person and make it a point never to make the same mistake again? What if you are particularly hard headed like me. You hurt someone and don’t get it. You repeat the same thing over and over because you may not feel the empathy. Then someone hurts you. Oh, that’s what it feels like! Oh my God, is that what the people feel like when I hurt them. Does that make you change? If not the same scenario happens again and again. Thank God, my Master Guide had patience. So your guide is sitting around on a cloud and watching your life and has your list in their hand and says, “Hey, this looks interesting. There is a possibility for Steve to learn a lesson. If he gets it this time I can cross it off the list!” Of course I don’t get it and my guide looks for an other opportunity to test me. I hate tests! I hate retaking tests! So, what do I do now?
After I fail a test I sit back and study it again (something I should have done in high school). Break down all of the components, the he said she said stuff. Then I think how I could have handled that differently. I put myself in the other person’s position and think about all of the possibilities. I run the film back in my mind. I really don’t want to have to repeat this test or exercise. If I do get re-tested, I want to pass the next time. I want my guide to hand me a small diploma and say congratulations you’re on to the next level. This happens to us every hour of everyday. It happens to us while we a dreaming. Experience what we can in this lifetime to become a better person, i.e. soul.
God sent many great teachers down here to us to give us divine examples. Jesus, Buddha, Crazy Horse, Mother Teresa, Abraham Lincoln, you see where I’m going. This whole test thing and past lives, etc. was very hard for me to believe. Besides being very skeptical I’m also hard headed. Luckily my wife is a hypnotherapist, who helps people go back to past lives and life between lives. If you want some great examples of this read any book by Brain Weiss or Michael Newton. I didn’t think PJ would be able to hypnotize me. I was wrong. Next I wanted proof from a past life that it was real. I wanted to be able to research and document things in this past life that there was no way I could have known in this life. I wanted the session to knock my socks off. Be careful what you ask for!
After I came out of hypnosis and my shirt was soaked from the tears I knew all of this crap was true! The final hurdle and I made it. I’ll talk about past lives towards the back of this book. I just wanted to go over some of the rules of the game so you can start thinking about the big picture. This was the time that this kind of stuff was introduced to me in the beginning and I had trouble dealing with it. It is not predestination. But there is a little voice in the back of your head, that we often take credit for, that is either your higher self (soul) or Spirit Guide telling us to do something. I sure wish I could check my heavenly list at this point. I’m not lazy, but I think I would have taken an easier path. But that’s common sense talking and not my divine soul speaking.
Everything happens for a reason. Things that you thought happened by chance really weren’t at all. Do you want some of this stuff to happen to you? In some sense yes, as crazy as it sounds. The deaths and accidents that have occurred around you happened for a reason. Okay, don’t throw away the book and quit calling me Son of a Bitch! And start thinking in the grand scheme of things. When I go to the bookstore, the metaphysical section of course, the books pick me out. Think about it. Listen to the little voice. Why did you pull that book of the shelf and buy it (or steal it, I’m just assuming you bought it). When the student is ready the teacher will appear! This is an old Buddhist proverb that is very true. But who decides when the student is ready. You guessed it! Your Spirit Guide. How can you explain the chance meetings of some of the most important people in your life? After a while you will stop considering, chance, coincidence, accidents and luck. You will know it is by design. And when you are as skeptical as I am, you have a fallback plan, your Spirit Guide or Guides. Okay guys and gals, It’s fourth and long in the enemy territory, are you sure I’m supposed to do this? A voice told me to study Tarot. Tarot? Are you sure? John Edward did!
“Thanks good enough for me.”
If you have ever had a good reading from a medium, you know it is an amazing accomplishment. It makes you feel so good and is literally a life changing event. It has just been proven to you that we don’t die and a person has just given you proof that your loved ones and friends are alive and well on the other side! It feels the same way for the medium. Every time I get a name of a relative validated by a sitter it is like hitting a home run! Every time I describe a pet and describe its color, the breed, its name and personality it is like winning the National Spelling Bee! And I’m dyslexic, so you can imagine what that feels like for me. As a stakes groom, I worked for three different Hall of Fame Thoroughbred trainers and my horses have won a lot of races. After winning a $100,000 race with one of my horses in Chicago, a friend asked if it was the best feeling in the world. I said it was good, but not as good as running tenth in the Kentucky Derby!
It takes years to develop your psychic and mediumship skills and abilities. There are a lot of psychics and mediums that say they were born psychics and remember having these skills as young kids. That’s all and good. We’re all born psychic. If they don’t have to work to polish and upgrade their skills, then what was the point in this life time? Many of the best mediums studied and worked on their skills for up to seven to ten years before they began to charge money for their services or to perform in public. Don’t be in a hurry. I studied for six years before I “turned pro.” What is the point if you hang out a shingle with your name on it and start giving half ass readings to people who deserve the best? This is the part in the movie “The Matrix” were Morpheus offers Neo the red and blue pill. Take the blue pill and you’ll go to sleep tonight and wake up in the morning remembering nothing. Take the red pill and see how far the rabbit hole goes, but there is no going back.
Once you get to a point in your development, there is no going back. Even if you don’t want to be a professional psychic, you can use these skills to help your life and others. I know psychic veterinarians, lawyers, pilots, salesman, secretaries, dental assistants, actors and mailmen that use their psychic skills in everyday life. Once you get to a point, the messages or life changes won’t stop. Do you really want to be a medium? Are you prepared to spend long hours and years preparing for it? There is a hell of a lot easier paths to make a buck. You could just as well go to college for six to seven years and get your doctorates degree. But you may already be on your life’s path and your guides are bumping you every once in the while until you finally get it. This may be what you are supposed to do in this life! This is what you signed up for.
I don’t believe in coincidences any more. I don’t believe in luck anymore as well. Everything happens for a reason. I don’t believe in predestination. I know we have free will and can change the path we signed up for. There are no random experiences. I believe in cause and effect, even if the cause is super natural or from the other side of the veil. Start believing in synchronicity. There is a big plan for humanity and it is moving too slow for me. Did I mention one of my life lessons this life is patience?
Everything that is good and bad in the world happens for a reason. It is very hard to accept this concept. Once you accept reincarnation, this will be but a little bump in the road. To say that bad things happen to good people for a reason sounds very callous and demeaning. But try to be like the perfect Buddhist and detach yourself from the outcome for just a minute.
It’s like watching a boring movie, people being killed, bad things happening to them and all around them. But you are not personally invested in the outcome, so it doesn’t matter to you. If someone is killed half way around the world, you may not care. But invest your personal feelings and attachment to the situation and it will knock you on your butt. I have to detach my feelings from the people I am reading so I can give them what they want. I can’t get emotionally involved! It would lower my energy and vibrations and I wouldn’t be giving it my best effort. So if you are detached you’re not feeling the same sensations as someone who is attached to the situation. What if you went through your entire life being detached? It wouldn’t be a very fun life in this world. You wouldn’t know sorrow or joy. You wouldn’t know the devastation of losing someone close to you or the love of a soul mate. Would your life be worth living?
What if…just what if…before you came down here to this life, you made a list of different experiences to happen to you in this lifetime. You wouldn’t want to pile on too much, for you are in no hurry to experience everything. You know you will have many lives to develop your soul that is living the high life on the other plane we call heaven. It doesn’t sound so bad to think about it that way. And to make sure you experience everything that you wanted to, you asked a guide (with super powers) that would stay virtually invisible to help keep you on the path to learn these lessons. To make sure you hook up with your soul mate or mates so you create a déjà vu or little red flags that pop up from time to time to make sure you feel safe heading down a particular path. After all there was a wise council that showed you scenes from the role you are taking in this movie, I mean life, so you won’t just be relying on your own thoughts and wishes, but someone much wiser than yourself that you know will help you grow as a soul, I mean person. Get the big picture? How do I know? I talk to dead people and that’s good enough for me.
Remember I said we have free will. Why do we do the things we do? Did you ever wish you could take something back that you said that hurt somebody? Did you grow as a person and make it a point never to make the same mistake again? What if you are particularly hard headed like me. You hurt someone and don’t get it. You repeat the same thing over and over because you may not feel the empathy. Then someone hurts you. Oh, that’s what it feels like! Oh my God, is that what the people feel like when I hurt them. Does that make you change? If not the same scenario happens again and again. Thank God, my Master Guide had patience. So your guide is sitting around on a cloud and watching your life and has your list in their hand and says, “Hey, this looks interesting. There is a possibility for Steve to learn a lesson. If he gets it this time I can cross it off the list!” Of course I don’t get it and my guide looks for an other opportunity to test me. I hate tests! I hate retaking tests! So, what do I do now?
After I fail a test I sit back and study it again (something I should have done in high school). Break down all of the components, the he said she said stuff. Then I think how I could have handled that differently. I put myself in the other person’s position and think about all of the possibilities. I run the film back in my mind. I really don’t want to have to repeat this test or exercise. If I do get re-tested, I want to pass the next time. I want my guide to hand me a small diploma and say congratulations you’re on to the next level. This happens to us every hour of everyday. It happens to us while we a dreaming. Experience what we can in this lifetime to become a better person, i.e. soul.
God sent many great teachers down here to us to give us divine examples. Jesus, Buddha, Crazy Horse, Mother Teresa, Abraham Lincoln, you see where I’m going. This whole test thing and past lives, etc. was very hard for me to believe. Besides being very skeptical I’m also hard headed. Luckily my wife is a hypnotherapist, who helps people go back to past lives and life between lives. If you want some great examples of this read any book by Brain Weiss or Michael Newton. I didn’t think PJ would be able to hypnotize me. I was wrong. Next I wanted proof from a past life that it was real. I wanted to be able to research and document things in this past life that there was no way I could have known in this life. I wanted the session to knock my socks off. Be careful what you ask for!
After I came out of hypnosis and my shirt was soaked from the tears I knew all of this crap was true! The final hurdle and I made it. I’ll talk about past lives towards the back of this book. I just wanted to go over some of the rules of the game so you can start thinking about the big picture. This was the time that this kind of stuff was introduced to me in the beginning and I had trouble dealing with it. It is not predestination. But there is a little voice in the back of your head, that we often take credit for, that is either your higher self (soul) or Spirit Guide telling us to do something. I sure wish I could check my heavenly list at this point. I’m not lazy, but I think I would have taken an easier path. But that’s common sense talking and not my divine soul speaking.
Everything happens for a reason. Things that you thought happened by chance really weren’t at all. Do you want some of this stuff to happen to you? In some sense yes, as crazy as it sounds. The deaths and accidents that have occurred around you happened for a reason. Okay, don’t throw away the book and quit calling me Son of a Bitch! And start thinking in the grand scheme of things. When I go to the bookstore, the metaphysical section of course, the books pick me out. Think about it. Listen to the little voice. Why did you pull that book of the shelf and buy it (or steal it, I’m just assuming you bought it). When the student is ready the teacher will appear! This is an old Buddhist proverb that is very true. But who decides when the student is ready. You guessed it! Your Spirit Guide. How can you explain the chance meetings of some of the most important people in your life? After a while you will stop considering, chance, coincidence, accidents and luck. You will know it is by design. And when you are as skeptical as I am, you have a fallback plan, your Spirit Guide or Guides. Okay guys and gals, It’s fourth and long in the enemy territory, are you sure I’m supposed to do this? A voice told me to study Tarot. Tarot? Are you sure? John Edward did!
“Thanks good enough for me.”
Wednesday, October 5, 2011
A Spirit Quest: The Awakening of a Skeptical Cowboy Psychic
Chapter 5: Eagle Heart
So as soon as I get to my room and see my spirit guide on the couch, I’m screaming get me out of here. What was I thinking? Let’s make like a shepherd and get the flock out of here. Why did I let you talk me into this life?
After I settled down I asked him his name. He said it didn’t matter that I could call him anything that I liked. Bless his heart, because he has the one of the hardest jobs on the other side of the veil, taking me under his wing. I wouldn’t want to guide someone like myself. It would be too much work for me. Not knowing his name wasn’t good enough for me. It’s like, no, really, tell me. And he’d say it really doesn’t matter and I’d say it does. It does matter. So he said in due time I’ll give you my name. I know I came down here to learn patience, among other things, but really, he knows I don’t have any patience! I dropped it because he’s a six foot five, 35 year-old Comanche that didn’t play games.
Later that night I had one of those visitation dreams by guess who? I know I got a lecture (I forget what that was about), but he told me his name, Eagle Heart. Wow! How cool is that! I know his name now. But of course being the skeptic that I am, I second guessed myself. What if I made that up myself? I mean he was standing there talking to me. It seemed real, but what if I just made it up. What if his real name is Frank or Leroy or something? That is another reason I know Eagle Heart has so much power and patience! Very few master guides would ever pick me to guide. I don’t know what kind of rewards Eagle Heart is getting on the other side, but I hope he is getting time and a half! I asked him if your name really is Eagle Heart, please give me a sign. No wait make that three signs. I can hear him now. I’m not some kind of Genie. This isn’t a three wish kind of deal.
The next night, October 8th, it’s in my journal, I asked for a sign that his name really was Eagle Heart. I asked him in a silent prayer just before I went to sleep. I was sound asleep in about thirty minutes when I heard a big thud or bang. I’m a light sleeper anyway but shot up in bed like a rocket. PJ is a very sound sleeper and it got her up. What was that? She said. At that time I didn’t have a light beside my bed. Turn on the light I yelled. I’m looking around the room and get out of bed and step at book on the floor that I was reading just before I went fell asleep. I know it was on my bedside table about ten inches from the edge. Someone or thing pushed it off the table and onto the floor. PJ asked if I had knocked it off the stand. Are you kidding I was on your side of the bed. Why would that happen? She said. And then it came to me. “I asked for a sign,” I said. What kind of sign? If my spirit guides’ name really was Eagle Heart. Well I guess you got your answer. What book was it? She asked. I replied, “Connecting to Spirit, by Kathleen Tucci!” I get chills just thinking back to this in my journal. I’m sure they were playing the Twilight Zone theme!
Of course I was looking for other signs. The next sign I got was when I was driving with my wife somewhere. Of all of those billboards that I ignored every day, one stood out. There was a bad ass Indian standing and the sign said something like, “Heart of and Eagle.” I know, I thought it was a coincidence too. What if I had seen this sign before and it stayed in my subconscious and I dreamed this all up and named my guide myself. He said that it didn’t matter what I called him, which drove me crazy (It wasn’t a far drive to crazy). Okay, I’ll give you that one Eagle Heart the forgiving soul that I am. But, I’d like two more signs and not the same billboard on different roads.
A few days later I was at work. I worked at a retail store at DFW International airport then. I was looking to hire a part-time position that didn’t pay very much. I had listed the job on the internet and received tons of response. I started weeding them out very fast to find someone that I thought was suited for the job. I came across one resume that some idiot had sent in by mistake or was automatically generated that wanted a full-time job making more money than me. I trashed it. A few days later it showed up in my in-box again. What kind of idiot doesn’t pay attention to where they are sending their resume? Sure buddy, I’d like that kind of money too, but not here! For the first time I wanted to see who sent the resume.
“Ingle Heart,” It said on the resume. No way. I printed it out. Wow, that’s good. I’ll give you that one since it was so outrageous. So my Master Guide has a sense of humor. One to go boss. One more sign and I’m a believer. A few days later I’m sitting in my office and I hear the flight attendant calling for late passengers heading to Chicago.
“Igle Heart, Mr. Igle Heart, now boarding for Chicago. Last Call!”
You’ve got to be kidding me! I got up and stepped out of the office and started walking to the gate. I had to see this guy for myself. I stood by the gate as the attendant announced it again, but nobody ever showed up. Okay, I believe you now, I told him in my head. You won! I mean come on, what are the odds in one week? First the billboard, then the resume and now the boarding call. This guy is good and he’s my Master Guide.
For weeks in January I started waking up at 2:22 am just about every morning or every other morning. I heard the DJ’s on the Radio say it is 2:22 this afternoon. I’d see 222 on license plates, every time I turned around I saw 222. Okay, I know I’m a little thick-headed in seeing signs, but I was getting this one. This went on for about a month. I’d wake up in the middle of the night, look at my clock, 2:22, roll over and go back to sleep. I meditated and asked my guides and they said nothing. I couldn’t get a connection. I brought it up at Kat’s circle asking anybody if they got anything. Someone spoke up and said it sounded like a date to her, February 22 or 2/22. Interesting, I thought. I don’t have anything important happening on that date.
A couple of days before the 22nd I look at my calendar and saw that I had to go to traffic court to pay a speeding ticket I had received the first week in January. Oh my God! The 22nd! I gonna’ get the death penalty! Now I’m being a little superstitious and the 22nd is going to be my own personal Friday the 13th. The first thing I do is go down to the court house and pay the ticket to get that off my plate. I approach the lady behind the bullet proof class and hand her my ticket. She stares at it a really long time, flips a folder open and says wait right here. Oh my God! What now! I’m looking around to see if some officers are coming to haul me off. She comes back and says your ticket has been dismissed. I said, “Excuse me.” The judge has dismissed your ticket the clerk said. Why did he do that? I asked. The officer put the wrong year on your ticket and it was dismissed.
That got my attention! Here I was getting ready to pay a couple of hundred dollars for a speeding ticket (Yes I have a lead foot), and some way, some how, an experienced traffic officer who knows that if anything is wrong on the ticket it will get thrown out, puts the wrong date on the ticket. Synchronicity, Okay I got the message. My spirit guide uses the “Jedi Mind Trick” to confuse the cop to put last years date on the ticket. Now that’s cool! So basically he was just doing a little muscle flexing. It’s time to meditate. I go into my Adobe house and this time the crew is all there with grins on their faces, “Where have you been? Long time no see!”
“I won’t be so subtle in the future. Keep your eyes open for sign,” Eagle Heart said.
One day I asked my deceased grandfather to give me a sign that he was still around me and helping me. I’d finished a book called, Illusions, The Adventures of a Reluctant Messiah by Richard Bach (That I highly recommend and is on my book list), and the character in the book asks for a sign of a feather. So I asked my grandfather for a feather. Within an hour PJ and I were in a jewelry store and I walked up to a book that had been opened to a page full of silver feathers. Oh that was too easy, I thought. Okay, I meant a real honest to goodness feather. I left the store and went to my truck and found a white feather on my windshield. No way! I looked around and saw lots of pigeons. Although I didn’t see any white pigeons I thought that white was too easy. Okay Papa if that really is you, and I hope you don’t mind, but I’d like to find a real blue feather. I didn’t want to make him mad, but I really had to know.
An hour later I went to the Pharmacy to pick up some things. Walking out of the store I dropped the keys to my truck. I reached down to get them and there it was a blue feather! Thank you Papa! Oh my God! So how are you going to live your life knowing that everybody on the other side can see you, watch your every move and decision? This is some heavy stuff.
Every time you were mean to someone, treated someone badly or did something else stupid that you would like to forget, someone on the other side knew about it. Did I say someone, I meant everyone! There are no secrets on the other side, no lies, everybody knows how you spent your lives on earth, and how you did with your lessons, what you learned, etc., but there’s no judgment. That’s right, no judgment. You and God are the only ones that will judge you and you’ll be a lot harder on yourself than God will. You see he forgives you because he know nobody’s perfect. The only hell that exists is in your own mind. You judge yourself in heaven. This isn’t like grading your own paper in class. On the other side you know right from wrong. You get to see how you affected the people you mistreated and how it affected their lives, how miserable you made them, how this snowballed down the hill and affected other people and goes on and on. And you realize I did that by just calling that person a stupid name. You affected their self esteem and changed the course of history. Now how do you feel like if you killed someone?
It’s never too late to change. You don’t have to be the next Messiah or President of a country to make a difference. The good thing is you get to relive the good things you did for people. The little words of encouragement and random acts of kindness that you had no idea how it really helped mankind until you make it to heaven. When you came down here, you asked your guides to help you learn different things on earth. You can’t learn these lessons in heaven because they don’t have hate, jealousy, pain, death, sickness, greed, grief, worry, heartache and sadness in heaven.
One of the cool things about sitting in a gallery or circle is all of the energy in the room. I think that is why people go to sporting events and concerts. It’s the pulsating energy. Everybody has felt it before. When you go to the movies and get goose bumps by either feeling good of being scared. The energy helps raise our vibrations. Raising your vibrations helps you communicate with the other side of the veil.
The next time someone puts you down for being involved in Metaphysics, just remind them of the string theory and M-theory in quantum physics and that most scientists agree there may be eleven dimensions in our universe. Okay so why can’t heaven be one of those? I used to look up for heaven but realize it is around us all the time. We are but a grain of dust at the universes’ feet.
Mediums use the energy from the people sitting for them to raise their own vibrations. People are batteries (Didn’t you watch the Matrix?). The more people the more energy. The more enlightened and spiritual people the greater the energy. Radio and TV uses energy to send and receive sounds and pictures. Mediums use energy to do the same thing! I raise my vibrations to receive signals from the other side. It really is simple. How do I explain it? I don’t. I also can’t explain the internet, radio or high definition television, but I know they work and I use them.
Just by sitting in a gallery or circle you energy level gets higher. You are then closer to the veil. Random names or thoughts may pop into your head. Write them down. Tune in to the medium and focus your thoughts on their voice and zoom in. Try to connect with their energy. I often had flashes of pictures, photos, names, words and symbols but not enough to turn into a sentence or scene. Kat uses a technique that I call the fishing rod technique. Once she gets a flash or connection she focuses on the flash and reels it in. It can be a name, word, and picture and draw it into you. Create a bridge to the other side. It is like hearing one of your favorite songs on someone else’s radio. You know it’s your favorite song by just hearing a few of the notes, so you strain and focus all of your attention on the source of the music and you can hear it clearer. You may still have a few gaps, but you get the main idea of the song or in a medium’s case a conversation and you fill in the gaps. You don’t have to hear the person say, “I love you,” you see a flash of red roses like John Edward sees. You get it?
One last thing about Kat’s circle or gallery, she does them in the light. All the mediums on TV read people in the light. When I do a one on one reading I do it in the light. A lot of circles are held in the dark. I don’t know why, but it just makes it easier to make a connection. Maybe it affects concentration or something. I know there are fewer distractions. I can do readings with my eyes open or shut. I prefer to shut my eyes and see the visions in my head. There are fewer distractions and I don’t want the expressions of the people I’m reading to distract me. Fortune tellers use the reactions of their mark to do their cold readings. I just want to tell my sitter what I’m seeing and hearing and not to let my imagination add anything.
So as soon as I get to my room and see my spirit guide on the couch, I’m screaming get me out of here. What was I thinking? Let’s make like a shepherd and get the flock out of here. Why did I let you talk me into this life?
After I settled down I asked him his name. He said it didn’t matter that I could call him anything that I liked. Bless his heart, because he has the one of the hardest jobs on the other side of the veil, taking me under his wing. I wouldn’t want to guide someone like myself. It would be too much work for me. Not knowing his name wasn’t good enough for me. It’s like, no, really, tell me. And he’d say it really doesn’t matter and I’d say it does. It does matter. So he said in due time I’ll give you my name. I know I came down here to learn patience, among other things, but really, he knows I don’t have any patience! I dropped it because he’s a six foot five, 35 year-old Comanche that didn’t play games.
Later that night I had one of those visitation dreams by guess who? I know I got a lecture (I forget what that was about), but he told me his name, Eagle Heart. Wow! How cool is that! I know his name now. But of course being the skeptic that I am, I second guessed myself. What if I made that up myself? I mean he was standing there talking to me. It seemed real, but what if I just made it up. What if his real name is Frank or Leroy or something? That is another reason I know Eagle Heart has so much power and patience! Very few master guides would ever pick me to guide. I don’t know what kind of rewards Eagle Heart is getting on the other side, but I hope he is getting time and a half! I asked him if your name really is Eagle Heart, please give me a sign. No wait make that three signs. I can hear him now. I’m not some kind of Genie. This isn’t a three wish kind of deal.
The next night, October 8th, it’s in my journal, I asked for a sign that his name really was Eagle Heart. I asked him in a silent prayer just before I went to sleep. I was sound asleep in about thirty minutes when I heard a big thud or bang. I’m a light sleeper anyway but shot up in bed like a rocket. PJ is a very sound sleeper and it got her up. What was that? She said. At that time I didn’t have a light beside my bed. Turn on the light I yelled. I’m looking around the room and get out of bed and step at book on the floor that I was reading just before I went fell asleep. I know it was on my bedside table about ten inches from the edge. Someone or thing pushed it off the table and onto the floor. PJ asked if I had knocked it off the stand. Are you kidding I was on your side of the bed. Why would that happen? She said. And then it came to me. “I asked for a sign,” I said. What kind of sign? If my spirit guides’ name really was Eagle Heart. Well I guess you got your answer. What book was it? She asked. I replied, “Connecting to Spirit, by Kathleen Tucci!” I get chills just thinking back to this in my journal. I’m sure they were playing the Twilight Zone theme!
Of course I was looking for other signs. The next sign I got was when I was driving with my wife somewhere. Of all of those billboards that I ignored every day, one stood out. There was a bad ass Indian standing and the sign said something like, “Heart of and Eagle.” I know, I thought it was a coincidence too. What if I had seen this sign before and it stayed in my subconscious and I dreamed this all up and named my guide myself. He said that it didn’t matter what I called him, which drove me crazy (It wasn’t a far drive to crazy). Okay, I’ll give you that one Eagle Heart the forgiving soul that I am. But, I’d like two more signs and not the same billboard on different roads.
A few days later I was at work. I worked at a retail store at DFW International airport then. I was looking to hire a part-time position that didn’t pay very much. I had listed the job on the internet and received tons of response. I started weeding them out very fast to find someone that I thought was suited for the job. I came across one resume that some idiot had sent in by mistake or was automatically generated that wanted a full-time job making more money than me. I trashed it. A few days later it showed up in my in-box again. What kind of idiot doesn’t pay attention to where they are sending their resume? Sure buddy, I’d like that kind of money too, but not here! For the first time I wanted to see who sent the resume.
“Ingle Heart,” It said on the resume. No way. I printed it out. Wow, that’s good. I’ll give you that one since it was so outrageous. So my Master Guide has a sense of humor. One to go boss. One more sign and I’m a believer. A few days later I’m sitting in my office and I hear the flight attendant calling for late passengers heading to Chicago.
“Igle Heart, Mr. Igle Heart, now boarding for Chicago. Last Call!”
You’ve got to be kidding me! I got up and stepped out of the office and started walking to the gate. I had to see this guy for myself. I stood by the gate as the attendant announced it again, but nobody ever showed up. Okay, I believe you now, I told him in my head. You won! I mean come on, what are the odds in one week? First the billboard, then the resume and now the boarding call. This guy is good and he’s my Master Guide.
For weeks in January I started waking up at 2:22 am just about every morning or every other morning. I heard the DJ’s on the Radio say it is 2:22 this afternoon. I’d see 222 on license plates, every time I turned around I saw 222. Okay, I know I’m a little thick-headed in seeing signs, but I was getting this one. This went on for about a month. I’d wake up in the middle of the night, look at my clock, 2:22, roll over and go back to sleep. I meditated and asked my guides and they said nothing. I couldn’t get a connection. I brought it up at Kat’s circle asking anybody if they got anything. Someone spoke up and said it sounded like a date to her, February 22 or 2/22. Interesting, I thought. I don’t have anything important happening on that date.
A couple of days before the 22nd I look at my calendar and saw that I had to go to traffic court to pay a speeding ticket I had received the first week in January. Oh my God! The 22nd! I gonna’ get the death penalty! Now I’m being a little superstitious and the 22nd is going to be my own personal Friday the 13th. The first thing I do is go down to the court house and pay the ticket to get that off my plate. I approach the lady behind the bullet proof class and hand her my ticket. She stares at it a really long time, flips a folder open and says wait right here. Oh my God! What now! I’m looking around to see if some officers are coming to haul me off. She comes back and says your ticket has been dismissed. I said, “Excuse me.” The judge has dismissed your ticket the clerk said. Why did he do that? I asked. The officer put the wrong year on your ticket and it was dismissed.
That got my attention! Here I was getting ready to pay a couple of hundred dollars for a speeding ticket (Yes I have a lead foot), and some way, some how, an experienced traffic officer who knows that if anything is wrong on the ticket it will get thrown out, puts the wrong date on the ticket. Synchronicity, Okay I got the message. My spirit guide uses the “Jedi Mind Trick” to confuse the cop to put last years date on the ticket. Now that’s cool! So basically he was just doing a little muscle flexing. It’s time to meditate. I go into my Adobe house and this time the crew is all there with grins on their faces, “Where have you been? Long time no see!”
“I won’t be so subtle in the future. Keep your eyes open for sign,” Eagle Heart said.
One day I asked my deceased grandfather to give me a sign that he was still around me and helping me. I’d finished a book called, Illusions, The Adventures of a Reluctant Messiah by Richard Bach (That I highly recommend and is on my book list), and the character in the book asks for a sign of a feather. So I asked my grandfather for a feather. Within an hour PJ and I were in a jewelry store and I walked up to a book that had been opened to a page full of silver feathers. Oh that was too easy, I thought. Okay, I meant a real honest to goodness feather. I left the store and went to my truck and found a white feather on my windshield. No way! I looked around and saw lots of pigeons. Although I didn’t see any white pigeons I thought that white was too easy. Okay Papa if that really is you, and I hope you don’t mind, but I’d like to find a real blue feather. I didn’t want to make him mad, but I really had to know.
An hour later I went to the Pharmacy to pick up some things. Walking out of the store I dropped the keys to my truck. I reached down to get them and there it was a blue feather! Thank you Papa! Oh my God! So how are you going to live your life knowing that everybody on the other side can see you, watch your every move and decision? This is some heavy stuff.
Every time you were mean to someone, treated someone badly or did something else stupid that you would like to forget, someone on the other side knew about it. Did I say someone, I meant everyone! There are no secrets on the other side, no lies, everybody knows how you spent your lives on earth, and how you did with your lessons, what you learned, etc., but there’s no judgment. That’s right, no judgment. You and God are the only ones that will judge you and you’ll be a lot harder on yourself than God will. You see he forgives you because he know nobody’s perfect. The only hell that exists is in your own mind. You judge yourself in heaven. This isn’t like grading your own paper in class. On the other side you know right from wrong. You get to see how you affected the people you mistreated and how it affected their lives, how miserable you made them, how this snowballed down the hill and affected other people and goes on and on. And you realize I did that by just calling that person a stupid name. You affected their self esteem and changed the course of history. Now how do you feel like if you killed someone?
It’s never too late to change. You don’t have to be the next Messiah or President of a country to make a difference. The good thing is you get to relive the good things you did for people. The little words of encouragement and random acts of kindness that you had no idea how it really helped mankind until you make it to heaven. When you came down here, you asked your guides to help you learn different things on earth. You can’t learn these lessons in heaven because they don’t have hate, jealousy, pain, death, sickness, greed, grief, worry, heartache and sadness in heaven.
One of the cool things about sitting in a gallery or circle is all of the energy in the room. I think that is why people go to sporting events and concerts. It’s the pulsating energy. Everybody has felt it before. When you go to the movies and get goose bumps by either feeling good of being scared. The energy helps raise our vibrations. Raising your vibrations helps you communicate with the other side of the veil.
The next time someone puts you down for being involved in Metaphysics, just remind them of the string theory and M-theory in quantum physics and that most scientists agree there may be eleven dimensions in our universe. Okay so why can’t heaven be one of those? I used to look up for heaven but realize it is around us all the time. We are but a grain of dust at the universes’ feet.
Mediums use the energy from the people sitting for them to raise their own vibrations. People are batteries (Didn’t you watch the Matrix?). The more people the more energy. The more enlightened and spiritual people the greater the energy. Radio and TV uses energy to send and receive sounds and pictures. Mediums use energy to do the same thing! I raise my vibrations to receive signals from the other side. It really is simple. How do I explain it? I don’t. I also can’t explain the internet, radio or high definition television, but I know they work and I use them.
Just by sitting in a gallery or circle you energy level gets higher. You are then closer to the veil. Random names or thoughts may pop into your head. Write them down. Tune in to the medium and focus your thoughts on their voice and zoom in. Try to connect with their energy. I often had flashes of pictures, photos, names, words and symbols but not enough to turn into a sentence or scene. Kat uses a technique that I call the fishing rod technique. Once she gets a flash or connection she focuses on the flash and reels it in. It can be a name, word, and picture and draw it into you. Create a bridge to the other side. It is like hearing one of your favorite songs on someone else’s radio. You know it’s your favorite song by just hearing a few of the notes, so you strain and focus all of your attention on the source of the music and you can hear it clearer. You may still have a few gaps, but you get the main idea of the song or in a medium’s case a conversation and you fill in the gaps. You don’t have to hear the person say, “I love you,” you see a flash of red roses like John Edward sees. You get it?
One last thing about Kat’s circle or gallery, she does them in the light. All the mediums on TV read people in the light. When I do a one on one reading I do it in the light. A lot of circles are held in the dark. I don’t know why, but it just makes it easier to make a connection. Maybe it affects concentration or something. I know there are fewer distractions. I can do readings with my eyes open or shut. I prefer to shut my eyes and see the visions in my head. There are fewer distractions and I don’t want the expressions of the people I’m reading to distract me. Fortune tellers use the reactions of their mark to do their cold readings. I just want to tell my sitter what I’m seeing and hearing and not to let my imagination add anything.
Monday, September 26, 2011
Chapter 4: A Spirit Quest: The Awakening of a Skeptical Cowboy Psychic
Chapter 4: Betty Crocker
Just because I’m a skeptical son of a bitch, I had to go back another time the next month. Could he do it again? Sure enough, he did. PJ got a great second reading and even a message from her grandmother for me to stop eating so much pork! Imagine that, a spirit with a sense of humor. I’m not giving up pork!
A week later I was at a business meeting with PJ as I had won a cruise down to Mexico with my company. They wined and dined us. All you can eat steak, ribs, drinks, you name it. I made the most of it I ate more pork ribs than I ever had in my life. They were free for cryin’ out loud! And that night my gall bladder had enough. It was the most pain I think I have ever been in. I’ve been kicked and pawed by horses, knocked around by some of the best light-heavyweight and heavyweight boxers, broken fingers and bones, a toenail pulled out without pain killer and shingles. But that night was the worst. PJ called an ambulance and off I went to the hospital were an eager doctor needed to make a car payment and wanted to cut the damn thing out. As I was lying there in pain I truly believed I was going to die. At that moment I asked my deceased grandfather if I was going to die as I lay on the gurney looking up at the florescent emergency room lights.
“Everybody has to die,” he said.
I was pissed off!
“Am I gonna’ die tonight!” I demanded.
“No, not tonight. You’re going to go on your cruise,” he said.
A little while later the early x-rays came back and the doctor gave me some morphine for the pain. Boy that was some good stuff. To make a long story short, I didn’t have it removed on other medical advice back in Dallas. I went to my acupuncturist went I got back and told him everything that I had told the emergency room staff. The elderly Chinese gentlemen touch a point on my back and I jumped off the table.
“It’s your gall bladder!”
What took him about three minutes to diagnose, took the emergency room in Austin more than four hours. I told him that they wanted to take it out, because it was only functioning 50%.
“Half a gall bladder is better than none at all,” he said.
Simple, to the point, and one thirty dollar treatment later and I have never had another problem with my gall bladder. Needless to say if PJ’s granny had any more advice, my ears were wide open.
During this time I read everything John Edward had written. I looked into James Van Praagh, Dannion Brinkley and anything I could find on mediums, psychics that was on television or the internet. I also started investigating local psychic mediums such as Marco Rodriguez. John Edward said something about how your guides will lead you to the right path and help you find your way. Marco had studied under a local medium by the name of Kathleen Tucci. My wife said why don’t you talk to Marco and have him help you. Out of all of the mediums in Dallas, I felt like I needed to attend Kathleen’s development circle. Telling PJ one of my favorite quotes by Alois Blackwell, University of Houston running back. He wanted to play for Coach Bill Yeoman, who developed the veer-T offense,
“I always wanted to play for someone who invented something. Why take a piece of cake from just anybody when you can get one from Betty Crocker?”
I went on a fact finding mission to check this psychic development stuff out. Kat introduced herself at the door and asked how I’d found out about her and the circle. I told her my spirit guides picked her. That widened her eyes a little bit. Even though I didn’t know anything about my guides or angels, I had just read about them. Later I’d find out that this really wasn’t a true development circle in the Spiritualist tradition, but a 30 minute lecture and gallery, where Kat channeled spirit’s that had messages for the people at the gallery. There were a lot of beginning mediums there and they were allowed to jump in at breaks and give messages as well. I didn’t get a message for about two or three galleries, but was quite satisfied with the arrangement and skills of Kathleen. I bought her book at the gallery, Vibrating to Spirit, and studied up on this future teacher of mine.
You see it is one thing to get messages and dreams from spirit when they want to come through, but quite another thing entirely to get messages when you want to. You just don’t snap your fingers and summoned a spirit. It ain’t that easy! It takes years to develop the skills necessary to become a medium like I wanted to be. All mediums are psychics, but not all psychics are mediums. Mediums talk to dead people. Spirit lowers their vibrations, while the medium raises theirs while showing pictures and sounds to the medium. We’ll get into the types of mediumship later. I’m a mental medium. Spirit shows me slow motion scenes like home movies in my minds eye. What is your minds eye you ask? Shut your eyes and imagine your car. It looks like a picture in your mind just like a dream. Get it? Spirit shows me movies, still photos, and talks to me by telling me names I hear in my head. So if you don’t know how to explain what is happening to you, you think you are going crazy!
Trust me; don’t go around telling people you see dead people and hear voices. They’ll lock you up faster than a Jack rabbit crossing I-35! That’s the beauty of talking to a group of other mediums. You can talk shop and find out what its is all about. I soaked up everything Kat taught. I learned everything from protection prayers to pendulums. It never hurts to read everything you can get your hands on. I’ve got about two hundred books about mediums, psychics, healing and such. I don’t agree with all of it, but I have the knowledge. How do you know what to believe if you haven’t heard all of the opinions? Keep an open mind and ask a ton of questions. You have to let go of ego and not give a damn what anybody else thinks of you. I sure as hell didn’t care what anybody thought. They’d find out soon enough that I was crazy!
Besides learning tons of metaphysical information at these galleries, I also got to witness a lot of different styles of mediumship. Marco often showed up the weekly galleries. I actually got sick after the first few meetings. Not sick from negative energy or evil spirits, but from the unbelievable incredible energy in the room. I learned to say a protection prayer before doing any type of metaphysical work. I believe that the prayer activates something in your subconscious, higher self and alerts your guides and angels about what is coming.
Here is an example of the prayer I use before I do readings:
“I open mind and heart to perceive all higher guidance through the white light of God. I ask him to fill my heart and life with his love, power and protection. Help me become a channel for healing and wisdom as everything I am and do is through God.”
I started to see spirit and hear things while attending Kat’s galleries. I could tell you who I was seeing at the time and would hear bits and pieces of conversation between Kat and the spirit she was talking to. I didn’t have a clue how to meditate or who my Master Guide was. You see before we come down here we make a deal with a “guide” that will watch over us and help us stay on our path in order to learn the lessons we want to learn in this lifetime. You get one Master Guide who stays with you you’re entire life (which is just a snap of the fingers in the afterlife or what I call a New York minute). You have many guides that will help you with certain problems/opportunities as they come along. You may have as many as half a dozen helping you depending on what your Master Guide deems necessary. You also have a Guardian Angel that looks after you. Both the Master Guide and Guardian Angel have unbelievable power and can intervene in your life if necessary. If you have a car coming straight at you and you are not scheduled to die for another 37 years, you can bet you Guardian Angel will pull some strings to save you. Just hope you didn’t ask to be maimed by a car in this life to learn humility, pain, suffering, and what ever else.
Many of the mediums in Kat’s gallery including Marco said they could see my master guide and that he was a tough, big, and Native American. The first time I heard this, I thought, Yeah right that will be the day. But after a bunch of mediums gave the same information, I started to believe. I’d always ask them for his name and always get the same answer, that’s between you and him. How do I find out his name? Learn to meditate and ask!
I thought this meditation business would be hard, but it really isn’t. Meditation is just staying quiet long enough to wipe out the thoughts in your head so you can talk to your higher self (soul) or guides or anyone crossed over. I recommend a guided meditation for anyone who wants to start. There are a ton of guided meditations out there. Just about every medium has one on their website for sale. John Edward, John Holland, Echo Bodine, Gordon Smith, etc all have guided meditations. There are different guided meditations. I’d buy the one that speaks to you. Your guides will direct you to the one that will be most beneficial. Some will have you walking through the forest or garden, while others will have you climbing stairs through different colors of lights. The main thing to remember is that the guided meditation is intended to relax you and focus your energy and attention in the present moment and make you forget about all of the things that are troubling you or things you have to get done. It is really similar to hypnosis.
After you’ve done it a few times you can go solo. I am dyslexic (see everything backwards) and had Attention Deficient Disorder (ADD) as a kid. I’m right handed but have lived in my right brain (the creative and spiritual side) all of my life. I had asthma and was a sickly kid until high school. I am a mental medium and rely on my skills of clairvoyance (clear seeing), clairaudience (clear hearing), claircognizance (clear knowing) and psychometry (the ability to hold objects and receive psychic visions). Some people that are clairaudient can’t clear their head during meditation and thoughts and random strings of information keep popping in their head while they are trying to concentrate. I’m one of those people! If you’re one, just let it go. Let the information come in one side and let it go out the other. The interruptions are a pain in the ass, but I don’t know any other way. Just don’t attach yourself to any of the random thoughts. It’s kind of like driving down the highway and noticing billboards. How many do you notice, maybe one or two? That’s because you’ve learned to ignore them and your brain and subconscious screens out all of the ones that would be of no interest to you. In time that’s the way your brain will help you in meditation.
Most of the guided meditations have you end up in a room of your making. Mine’s a cool adobe house in southern New Mexico, in my mind of course. There are different tools to help you such as, a couch were my spirit guides sit, a big-screen television if they want to show me something, etc. You get the idea. So once you end up in the room what do you ask you’re Spirit Guide or your Soul?
“What the hell were you thinking? How did I get into to this mess?”
Just because I’m a skeptical son of a bitch, I had to go back another time the next month. Could he do it again? Sure enough, he did. PJ got a great second reading and even a message from her grandmother for me to stop eating so much pork! Imagine that, a spirit with a sense of humor. I’m not giving up pork!
A week later I was at a business meeting with PJ as I had won a cruise down to Mexico with my company. They wined and dined us. All you can eat steak, ribs, drinks, you name it. I made the most of it I ate more pork ribs than I ever had in my life. They were free for cryin’ out loud! And that night my gall bladder had enough. It was the most pain I think I have ever been in. I’ve been kicked and pawed by horses, knocked around by some of the best light-heavyweight and heavyweight boxers, broken fingers and bones, a toenail pulled out without pain killer and shingles. But that night was the worst. PJ called an ambulance and off I went to the hospital were an eager doctor needed to make a car payment and wanted to cut the damn thing out. As I was lying there in pain I truly believed I was going to die. At that moment I asked my deceased grandfather if I was going to die as I lay on the gurney looking up at the florescent emergency room lights.
“Everybody has to die,” he said.
I was pissed off!
“Am I gonna’ die tonight!” I demanded.
“No, not tonight. You’re going to go on your cruise,” he said.
A little while later the early x-rays came back and the doctor gave me some morphine for the pain. Boy that was some good stuff. To make a long story short, I didn’t have it removed on other medical advice back in Dallas. I went to my acupuncturist went I got back and told him everything that I had told the emergency room staff. The elderly Chinese gentlemen touch a point on my back and I jumped off the table.
“It’s your gall bladder!”
What took him about three minutes to diagnose, took the emergency room in Austin more than four hours. I told him that they wanted to take it out, because it was only functioning 50%.
“Half a gall bladder is better than none at all,” he said.
Simple, to the point, and one thirty dollar treatment later and I have never had another problem with my gall bladder. Needless to say if PJ’s granny had any more advice, my ears were wide open.
During this time I read everything John Edward had written. I looked into James Van Praagh, Dannion Brinkley and anything I could find on mediums, psychics that was on television or the internet. I also started investigating local psychic mediums such as Marco Rodriguez. John Edward said something about how your guides will lead you to the right path and help you find your way. Marco had studied under a local medium by the name of Kathleen Tucci. My wife said why don’t you talk to Marco and have him help you. Out of all of the mediums in Dallas, I felt like I needed to attend Kathleen’s development circle. Telling PJ one of my favorite quotes by Alois Blackwell, University of Houston running back. He wanted to play for Coach Bill Yeoman, who developed the veer-T offense,
“I always wanted to play for someone who invented something. Why take a piece of cake from just anybody when you can get one from Betty Crocker?”
I went on a fact finding mission to check this psychic development stuff out. Kat introduced herself at the door and asked how I’d found out about her and the circle. I told her my spirit guides picked her. That widened her eyes a little bit. Even though I didn’t know anything about my guides or angels, I had just read about them. Later I’d find out that this really wasn’t a true development circle in the Spiritualist tradition, but a 30 minute lecture and gallery, where Kat channeled spirit’s that had messages for the people at the gallery. There were a lot of beginning mediums there and they were allowed to jump in at breaks and give messages as well. I didn’t get a message for about two or three galleries, but was quite satisfied with the arrangement and skills of Kathleen. I bought her book at the gallery, Vibrating to Spirit, and studied up on this future teacher of mine.
You see it is one thing to get messages and dreams from spirit when they want to come through, but quite another thing entirely to get messages when you want to. You just don’t snap your fingers and summoned a spirit. It ain’t that easy! It takes years to develop the skills necessary to become a medium like I wanted to be. All mediums are psychics, but not all psychics are mediums. Mediums talk to dead people. Spirit lowers their vibrations, while the medium raises theirs while showing pictures and sounds to the medium. We’ll get into the types of mediumship later. I’m a mental medium. Spirit shows me slow motion scenes like home movies in my minds eye. What is your minds eye you ask? Shut your eyes and imagine your car. It looks like a picture in your mind just like a dream. Get it? Spirit shows me movies, still photos, and talks to me by telling me names I hear in my head. So if you don’t know how to explain what is happening to you, you think you are going crazy!
Trust me; don’t go around telling people you see dead people and hear voices. They’ll lock you up faster than a Jack rabbit crossing I-35! That’s the beauty of talking to a group of other mediums. You can talk shop and find out what its is all about. I soaked up everything Kat taught. I learned everything from protection prayers to pendulums. It never hurts to read everything you can get your hands on. I’ve got about two hundred books about mediums, psychics, healing and such. I don’t agree with all of it, but I have the knowledge. How do you know what to believe if you haven’t heard all of the opinions? Keep an open mind and ask a ton of questions. You have to let go of ego and not give a damn what anybody else thinks of you. I sure as hell didn’t care what anybody thought. They’d find out soon enough that I was crazy!
Besides learning tons of metaphysical information at these galleries, I also got to witness a lot of different styles of mediumship. Marco often showed up the weekly galleries. I actually got sick after the first few meetings. Not sick from negative energy or evil spirits, but from the unbelievable incredible energy in the room. I learned to say a protection prayer before doing any type of metaphysical work. I believe that the prayer activates something in your subconscious, higher self and alerts your guides and angels about what is coming.
Here is an example of the prayer I use before I do readings:
“I open mind and heart to perceive all higher guidance through the white light of God. I ask him to fill my heart and life with his love, power and protection. Help me become a channel for healing and wisdom as everything I am and do is through God.”
I started to see spirit and hear things while attending Kat’s galleries. I could tell you who I was seeing at the time and would hear bits and pieces of conversation between Kat and the spirit she was talking to. I didn’t have a clue how to meditate or who my Master Guide was. You see before we come down here we make a deal with a “guide” that will watch over us and help us stay on our path in order to learn the lessons we want to learn in this lifetime. You get one Master Guide who stays with you you’re entire life (which is just a snap of the fingers in the afterlife or what I call a New York minute). You have many guides that will help you with certain problems/opportunities as they come along. You may have as many as half a dozen helping you depending on what your Master Guide deems necessary. You also have a Guardian Angel that looks after you. Both the Master Guide and Guardian Angel have unbelievable power and can intervene in your life if necessary. If you have a car coming straight at you and you are not scheduled to die for another 37 years, you can bet you Guardian Angel will pull some strings to save you. Just hope you didn’t ask to be maimed by a car in this life to learn humility, pain, suffering, and what ever else.
Many of the mediums in Kat’s gallery including Marco said they could see my master guide and that he was a tough, big, and Native American. The first time I heard this, I thought, Yeah right that will be the day. But after a bunch of mediums gave the same information, I started to believe. I’d always ask them for his name and always get the same answer, that’s between you and him. How do I find out his name? Learn to meditate and ask!
I thought this meditation business would be hard, but it really isn’t. Meditation is just staying quiet long enough to wipe out the thoughts in your head so you can talk to your higher self (soul) or guides or anyone crossed over. I recommend a guided meditation for anyone who wants to start. There are a ton of guided meditations out there. Just about every medium has one on their website for sale. John Edward, John Holland, Echo Bodine, Gordon Smith, etc all have guided meditations. There are different guided meditations. I’d buy the one that speaks to you. Your guides will direct you to the one that will be most beneficial. Some will have you walking through the forest or garden, while others will have you climbing stairs through different colors of lights. The main thing to remember is that the guided meditation is intended to relax you and focus your energy and attention in the present moment and make you forget about all of the things that are troubling you or things you have to get done. It is really similar to hypnosis.
After you’ve done it a few times you can go solo. I am dyslexic (see everything backwards) and had Attention Deficient Disorder (ADD) as a kid. I’m right handed but have lived in my right brain (the creative and spiritual side) all of my life. I had asthma and was a sickly kid until high school. I am a mental medium and rely on my skills of clairvoyance (clear seeing), clairaudience (clear hearing), claircognizance (clear knowing) and psychometry (the ability to hold objects and receive psychic visions). Some people that are clairaudient can’t clear their head during meditation and thoughts and random strings of information keep popping in their head while they are trying to concentrate. I’m one of those people! If you’re one, just let it go. Let the information come in one side and let it go out the other. The interruptions are a pain in the ass, but I don’t know any other way. Just don’t attach yourself to any of the random thoughts. It’s kind of like driving down the highway and noticing billboards. How many do you notice, maybe one or two? That’s because you’ve learned to ignore them and your brain and subconscious screens out all of the ones that would be of no interest to you. In time that’s the way your brain will help you in meditation.
Most of the guided meditations have you end up in a room of your making. Mine’s a cool adobe house in southern New Mexico, in my mind of course. There are different tools to help you such as, a couch were my spirit guides sit, a big-screen television if they want to show me something, etc. You get the idea. So once you end up in the room what do you ask you’re Spirit Guide or your Soul?
“What the hell were you thinking? How did I get into to this mess?”
Tuesday, September 20, 2011
Chapter 3: May I Have My Socks Back, Please?
May I Have My Sock Back, Please?
This time we were waiting in line and got two tickets to get a reading from psychic medium Marco Rodriguez. I’m a cowboy so I wore some old tennis shoes, a non-western shirt and left it untucked to hide the big silver belt buckle (I only have one belt.), but I couldn’t hide the mustache. I didn’t want a cold reading from this guy who might say he had a horse coming through or something. We went to a pancake house to kill time before the reading. I had already decided what I wanted to hear from this guy. I didn’t want a horoscope reading. I wanted concrete proof! I knew PJ would be more open minded then me, so if this medium was for real, he’d have to knock my socks off!
I was first to be read. I sat down in front of him. He seemed pleasant enough. He had some Tarot cards in front of him and picked them up and just shuffled them. The first thing he said was,
“I have a Papa coming through.”
My mouth dropped open. He pronounced it like we called him, Papaw. It was my grandfather. I tried to make sense of it. Okay, okay I thought, it could have been a guess; tons of people have grandfathers known as Papa.
“He says his name is Edward,” Marco said.
Okay, my jaw hit the floor that time.
“He’s a really big man, wearing cowboy boots and leather,” Marco said.
I’m trying to rationalize this. Lucky guess? I didn’t know.
“Is your father in spirit?” Marco asked.
I thought I have him here, because my dad is not dead.
“Because he is calling him self, Daddy…Daddy Don,” Marco said.
Well I’ll be damned, I thought. That was my other deceased grandfather.
Marco went on to describe all kinds of things about them, such as what they looked like, what they did for a living, how they saw me at work. Then they (my grandfathers) proceeded to tell him where I worked and Marco was right on. I was kind of stunned. And then the knockout punch came.
“Did your grandfather listen to Elvis?” Marco asked.
“No, not that I’m aware of.”
“Did he have some Elvis records?”
I’d seen all of his LP records, eight track tapes and even cassette tapes and I never remembered a single Elvis copy. Marco was shaking his head and finally said.
“Your grandfather told me to look at that lady’s purse that had Elvis on it. Do you understand what he means?”
“Yes I do!”
I explained to Marco that only me and a cousin knew the Elvis story and it involved my grandfather having talked to Elvis’ dad about buying some Quarter Horses in the early sixties. Know one else in the family knew the story. Hell I bet Elvis himself didn’t know anything about it. My grandfather was a big Quarter Horse owner and breeder in the early and mid-sixties and met many celebrities.
That was the icing on the cake for me. This guy was for real and I was satisfied with everything he told me in a short 15 minutes. PJ was next and her grandmother came through and knocked her socks off. Marco came up with information that nobody in the world would have known, but her. I was on a high for a few days. What did this all mean? Marco proved to me beyond a reasonable doubt that there is life after death. We don’t die! Wow! Sit a minute and think about the implications. We don’t die. All of are friends and relatives that have passed on can see us, watch us, celebrate with us and mourn with us. They see it all. They don’t judge! Everything is unconditional love. All of this information was just spinning around in my head.
I believed in heaven or a hereafter. But now I know there is a heaven. And let me tell you there is a big difference in believing and knowing. Okay, now you know that you can never die, what’s next? I mean how you live your life knowing that some of the BS in Sunday school may be true. How will I be judged? Who will do the judging? Holy crap I need to change my lifestyle. At one time I didn’t think I’d live past thirty or maybe even forty because of the characters I hung out with. I had really cleaned up my act when I met PJ, but still had a little outlaw in me. Then I started thinking about everything bad I’d ever done. You know, like your life flashing before your eyes (We’ll get to that later, but when you first arrive in heaven you have a life review. I know because I talk to dead people.). Some of the things done could never be repaid. Some of the people I mistreated could never be undone. What now? By God you’ve got to start making up for the bad crap and hope you come out on top in the end.
Pretty heavy stuff! Stop living for yourself and start living for others. It was as if someone hit me between the eyes with a two-by-four (not to be confused with opening my third eye).
“You selfish son of a bitch!” I thought.
All this time, all the material goods, all the wasted time, all of the hollow friendships, never give a sucker an even break, always watch your back and never trust anyone. It was a crystal clear moment. Not that I haven’t fallen off the judgment wagon from time to time. It’s human nature to do so. You just want to be a better human. You now have the keys of life in your hand.
“Do un to others as you would have them do UN to you.”
Seems like I’ve heard that before. I just couldn’t place it. Just didn’t understand it. Didn’t have a clue until now. This was pretty heavy thinking for me. I wasn’t even ready for anything about karma or reincarnation. I mean I was still skeptical for God’s sake! I just needed to get my socks back on that Marco had knocked off and think about all of this metaphysical shit for a while.
This time we were waiting in line and got two tickets to get a reading from psychic medium Marco Rodriguez. I’m a cowboy so I wore some old tennis shoes, a non-western shirt and left it untucked to hide the big silver belt buckle (I only have one belt.), but I couldn’t hide the mustache. I didn’t want a cold reading from this guy who might say he had a horse coming through or something. We went to a pancake house to kill time before the reading. I had already decided what I wanted to hear from this guy. I didn’t want a horoscope reading. I wanted concrete proof! I knew PJ would be more open minded then me, so if this medium was for real, he’d have to knock my socks off!
I was first to be read. I sat down in front of him. He seemed pleasant enough. He had some Tarot cards in front of him and picked them up and just shuffled them. The first thing he said was,
“I have a Papa coming through.”
My mouth dropped open. He pronounced it like we called him, Papaw. It was my grandfather. I tried to make sense of it. Okay, okay I thought, it could have been a guess; tons of people have grandfathers known as Papa.
“He says his name is Edward,” Marco said.
Okay, my jaw hit the floor that time.
“He’s a really big man, wearing cowboy boots and leather,” Marco said.
I’m trying to rationalize this. Lucky guess? I didn’t know.
“Is your father in spirit?” Marco asked.
I thought I have him here, because my dad is not dead.
“Because he is calling him self, Daddy…Daddy Don,” Marco said.
Well I’ll be damned, I thought. That was my other deceased grandfather.
Marco went on to describe all kinds of things about them, such as what they looked like, what they did for a living, how they saw me at work. Then they (my grandfathers) proceeded to tell him where I worked and Marco was right on. I was kind of stunned. And then the knockout punch came.
“Did your grandfather listen to Elvis?” Marco asked.
“No, not that I’m aware of.”
“Did he have some Elvis records?”
I’d seen all of his LP records, eight track tapes and even cassette tapes and I never remembered a single Elvis copy. Marco was shaking his head and finally said.
“Your grandfather told me to look at that lady’s purse that had Elvis on it. Do you understand what he means?”
“Yes I do!”
I explained to Marco that only me and a cousin knew the Elvis story and it involved my grandfather having talked to Elvis’ dad about buying some Quarter Horses in the early sixties. Know one else in the family knew the story. Hell I bet Elvis himself didn’t know anything about it. My grandfather was a big Quarter Horse owner and breeder in the early and mid-sixties and met many celebrities.
That was the icing on the cake for me. This guy was for real and I was satisfied with everything he told me in a short 15 minutes. PJ was next and her grandmother came through and knocked her socks off. Marco came up with information that nobody in the world would have known, but her. I was on a high for a few days. What did this all mean? Marco proved to me beyond a reasonable doubt that there is life after death. We don’t die! Wow! Sit a minute and think about the implications. We don’t die. All of are friends and relatives that have passed on can see us, watch us, celebrate with us and mourn with us. They see it all. They don’t judge! Everything is unconditional love. All of this information was just spinning around in my head.
I believed in heaven or a hereafter. But now I know there is a heaven. And let me tell you there is a big difference in believing and knowing. Okay, now you know that you can never die, what’s next? I mean how you live your life knowing that some of the BS in Sunday school may be true. How will I be judged? Who will do the judging? Holy crap I need to change my lifestyle. At one time I didn’t think I’d live past thirty or maybe even forty because of the characters I hung out with. I had really cleaned up my act when I met PJ, but still had a little outlaw in me. Then I started thinking about everything bad I’d ever done. You know, like your life flashing before your eyes (We’ll get to that later, but when you first arrive in heaven you have a life review. I know because I talk to dead people.). Some of the things done could never be repaid. Some of the people I mistreated could never be undone. What now? By God you’ve got to start making up for the bad crap and hope you come out on top in the end.
Pretty heavy stuff! Stop living for yourself and start living for others. It was as if someone hit me between the eyes with a two-by-four (not to be confused with opening my third eye).
“You selfish son of a bitch!” I thought.
All this time, all the material goods, all the wasted time, all of the hollow friendships, never give a sucker an even break, always watch your back and never trust anyone. It was a crystal clear moment. Not that I haven’t fallen off the judgment wagon from time to time. It’s human nature to do so. You just want to be a better human. You now have the keys of life in your hand.
“Do un to others as you would have them do UN to you.”
Seems like I’ve heard that before. I just couldn’t place it. Just didn’t understand it. Didn’t have a clue until now. This was pretty heavy thinking for me. I wasn’t even ready for anything about karma or reincarnation. I mean I was still skeptical for God’s sake! I just needed to get my socks back on that Marco had knocked off and think about all of this metaphysical shit for a while.
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